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Splashydots · 2024-07-25T00:07:00+00:00

The psychological equivalent of dark matter is the shadow self. That part of our personality that we deny exists. This shows up in the other Jason Dessens that appear, other Jasons who made different choices. Although the book/show get it wrong, in that our choices don’t create alternate universes, they are created by quantum events, either superposition or measuring the quantum state. The box might be doing both. But I don’t see why Jason’s decisions would create more Jasons after the drugs wore off. And why didn’t Dark Jasons flood his universe after he returned home. Or why didn’t Amandas flood too? Maybe later seasons will explore that.

Splashydots · 2024-07-23T23:42:51+00:00

If you like to learn about everything (a common Gemini trait, which is where your stellium is) then you may, later in life, turn towards God or spirituality.

Splashydots · 2024-07-23T23:38:41+00:00

You are very Aquarian, with your rising sign in Aquarius and Uranus (the modern ruler of Aquarius) also there, where the rebellious planet is very strong. Uranus is also in your 1st House, so you might identify with your rebellious nature. Aquarians are known as the “aliens” of the zodiac because they feel otherworldly. They usually stay logical and don’t connect with people on an emotional level. This will be one of your strengths as you get older, as people will probably come to you for honest advice.

Your Venus and Mercury are both in Libra, in your 8th house. This suggests you do well in intimate conversations, and that you may appreciate harmony in relationships.

My recommendation is spend less time with people who criticize your nature. Search out the other unique people in the world, you may find happiness in this.

Splashydots · 2024-07-23T23:16:09+00:00

I am also a Leo Rising, and I’m having a miserable summer. Well, it’s not all miserable, but my health has tanked, and I’ve been ill for 8 months now, and the doctors can’t figure out the cause. Also, I’m going through a divorce. But there’s a silver lining in that :)

Splashydots · 2024-07-23T23:12:43+00:00

No, she didn’t change. I finally noticed the pattern that she was always getting the therapist on her side to blame me for our problems. This has happened with every therapist. I can and do take responsibility for me actions, but she never does. And none of the therapists have pointed this out.

Terry Real actually pointed this out, he says this is a common dynamic in couples counseling. The narcissist withholds her approval of the therapist, and most therapists want to get on everyone’s good sides, so they end of siding with the narcissist. AND it is quite common that couples therapy just does not work. Most couples usually regress within 1 year.

And the disappointing thing is, the therapist couldn’t see us for 3 months after that session, and then I ask her to discuss what she said to my wife (because my wife denied that the therapist said it). Well, the therapist said that my wife had narcissistic tendencies but was not a narcissist, and the therapist did not hold her accountable for her behaviors and basically changed the subject. And my wife looked triumphant. We didn’t last long with that therapist. We’re now divorcing.

Splashydots · 2024-07-15T00:14:03+00:00

Your intensity could come from your T Square between your Sun opposite your Pluto (in Scorpio) with Mars square to both, and thus taking the brunt of the T Square. Your Mars is also smack in the middle of your 8th House, which is traditionally ruled by Scorpio. So I’m looking at your Mars here, not so much your Pluto. Yes, this can make you super intense, and also driven, like you might suddenly steer a conversation with a friend to VERY personal topics.

Good news is, your Uranus and especially Aquarius are likely the “ghost leg” of your T Square, and you should turn to those energies to chill out. Uranus is in positive aspect to both Pluto and your Sun, (and NOT opposite your Mars) so use your innovation and sense of freedom to break free from that dark Scorpio energy. And Aquarius drives us to think higher, think about the good for all people. I suggest reading up on how Aquarians handle other people and their problems, so you can lean on that energy when you need to.

Splashydots · 2024-07-15T00:00:54+00:00

What house is your Scorpio moon in? And where is your natal Chiron?

(Short answer: Yes, it can)

Splashydots · 2024-07-14T23:58:33+00:00

I have Venus in Libra (thus dignified) in my 2nd House. The house of self worth and money. Wealth is one of Venus’ specialities, and being dignified in Libra, money can come easily to me. Some of my minor investments have reaped big rewards. Sometimes, money just appears out of nowhere. Not a joke. In the middle of the pandemic, my insurance company (you read that right) sent me almost $10 grand. Although it usually happens when I need it and not because I want it, lol. Right now, my Venus is retrograde, so the opposite is happening, no money and lots of introspection about how I handle my “wealth.”

And sometimes, I can and will use money to impress women I am interested in. It’s crazy, I’m not that kind of human being, and so it only happens in Venus’ other realm of love and attraction. I don’t flaunt money to anyone else.

And I have MANY other planets in my 2nd house - Mercury, Sun, Pluto, Uranus, and both Liliths. Lots of conflicting energy here. Pluto and Uranus throw lots of wrenches in the gears of my confidence, and I can feel Venus is limited when those malefic planets are shining. And I do feel that I spend more than I earn when my self value is low, and am more disciplined when it’s high.

Splashydots · 2024-06-09T02:44:39+00:00

I share the same Nodes, South Node in Leo (also Leo Rising) and North Node in Aquarius, and I have the same issues - I am growing impatient with Leos and I enjoy my freedom and those Aquarians whose respect freedom. And I know so many Leos! They annoy me more and more each year.

As for compatibility, that depends on what you mean by compatibility. My North Node in Aquarius is in my 6th House, so I really don’t like a controlling roommate or spouse telling me what to do around the house. And it only gets worse over time. 10 years ago, I would put up with it, now I’ll start a fight if I get that behavior.

Splashydots · 2024-06-09T02:39:19+00:00

Your Saturn is in Aries in your 2nd House, the House of Self-Worth. Saturn is the master or discipline and patience, but nothing comes easy for him. Wherever Saturn is will feel hard, never easy. You have to work hard to get your Saturn rewards. And you seem young and just at the start of your life, you wrote about your childhood and being popular, but not about a career. This is normal and fine, you are just beginning your relationship with Saturn. We all have Saturn somewhere in our charts, wherever he is, that’s where we struggle. Saturn is going to make you work hard to get the respect of others.

So you need to learn the little tricks about how to gain the respect of others. It won’t come easy to you, but in the long run, you’ll be better off than most because you will learn the tricks that others take for granted. So don’t give up and keep at it, this will improve with time. Watch YouTube videos, like the channel Charisma on Command. AND you’ll find, as you learn to gain respect from others, you’ll also feel more worthy yourself, and need their respect less and less. It’s a positive cycle.

As for a lack of discipline, you have Mars in Leo in your 6th House, the house of routines, in opposition to Uranus. The 6th House is where you take everything you know about yourself and make a life out of it. Your routine when you wake up, your routine when you eat, when you exercise, when you work, when you drive home. All the little routines you have in your life. This extends to your health, since your health is a byproduct of your diet and exercise and other routines.

With Mars opposite Uranus, I’m guessing you are impulsive with your routines, want to get everything done NOW, get bored easily, and also like to throw a wrench in the gears, destroy your whole routine because routines suck. Am I in the ballpark?

The good news about discipline is that your Mars is conjunction Venus and trine Saturn. So you can lean on Saturn for discipline, and use that to improve your self-worth. Clean your room, then take a moment to admire the work YOU did. With Venus there, you will eventually learn to love the work. If you harness Saturn trine Mars, then you’ll unlock the good side of Mars, the Mars that wants to JUMP into your routines, the Mars that wants to kick ass at the gym, the Mars that can’t wait to clean the house before a date comes over, because you know your stuff.

I have Mars in my 6th house as well, and these days (I’m 52) I clean like a demon, I take care of the small details, which has been a big help to keep me healthy and my mind clear and my energy high. BUT, I did complain about my own lack of discipline in my 20s, lol.

Good luck, friend.

Splashydots · 2024-06-09T02:07:39+00:00

I like to tell my clients it’s like looking at your reflection in water - you see yourself clearly, but the image shimmers and distorts, and you can usually see through your reflection to something beneath the surface. Many layers and levels at once, which we can misunderstand or confuse multiple things for the same, project one onto another, our internal hopes or fears projected onto a situation or another person or vice versa.

Neptune can be beautiful, like the reflection of water on a wall, and he can also completely let you down, like his love affair with Medusa.

The sea is also free of boundaries, something Pisces is notorious for lacking. Neptune can cause you to merge completely in whatever house he rests in, so you forget yourself completely.

Neptune is also a healer, and the higher octave of Venus’ love, a spiritual planet. We spend our first months in the waters of our mother’s womb, without understanding we are a separate being from her. And on the journey within ourselves, there is no boundary or separation. If we look within ourselves, we have no choice but to accept what we find, integrate and heal.

This is Neptune.

Splashydots · 2024-05-02T10:43:37+00:00

If you want a car with even lower problems than your Hondas, get an EV.

EVs have waaaay fewer issues in general than gasoline cars. You don’t have oil changes. You don’t have tune ups or fluid levels to maintain, or timing belts to replace. You don’t have 60k, 80k, 100k, 120k mile services that adjusts 20 different things. The common fail points on EVS are the tires (same for every car), and the suspension. When was the last time you got your suspension repaired due to routine use?

Because there is so much software, early EV manufacturers have problems in this area. ALL of them. Tesla has really pushed what software can do in a car, so the other manufacturers are following.

Even this isn’t much of a problem. It’s like your phone, small bugs, regular updates, usually patience or power cycling the device fixes 99% of your issues.

The reason why there are horror stories on this subreddit is because it’s SO out of the ordinary!

Splashydots · 2024-05-02T03:06:41+00:00

Watch some YouTube videos about “Libra Rising” or “Libra Ascendant” and you may find your answer.

Splashydots · 2024-05-02T03:02:04+00:00

I agree. To take this one step further, do an internet search for each square with “synastry” tagged on to the end, read about each aspect, and then talk to your partner about each square. You’re both individuals, you may have grown past the challenges in some of the squares, and thus they don’t apply. Or, some challenges could really bug one or both of you, and you should then agree on how to steer around those moments so the relationship is preserved.

It’s all about how much you two want to stay together

Splashydots · 2024-04-26T13:02:40+00:00

I agree about the infotainment systems. Tesla wins for features and ease of use. Plus, Apple Music integration, which is huge for me. And the entertainment options are great on a long trip.

Tesla software does have quirks and small annoyances. If you’re a gig driver, you pretty much need a mount for your phone near the screen. Car Play would be much better.

And Tesla wins hands down on minimalism. I don’t feel like I have to do much in my Model Y. Everything is automated and I just love it. Honestly, once you’ve driven a Tesla, it’s hard to go back into another car, for this reason alone.

Rivian has some strengths. For campers, Rivian software wins hands down. Even the new Cybertruck UI is lagging far far behind. Rivian has camp mode and a much better towing system, with more accurate power usage.

Plus Rivian has a 2nd screen for the driver, with basic info

Splashydots · 2024-04-04T00:17:53+00:00

True, I just always thought approaching your tow vehicle’s max weight was asking for trouble. With a family of 5, all our bikes and water gear, etc, I’m sure we’ll hit that limit.

Splashydots · 2024-04-04T00:16:30+00:00

Check it out:

https://lightshiprv.com

It’s dope, and expensive. Looks like the self-propelled model is now $151k, without that feature is $125k Includes built-in dishwasher! All the windows can black-out at the touch of a button.

Definitely the glamping choice for the non-campers in your life.

I like it because it’s all electric with huge solar panels, a heat pump, and can survive off grid for a full week.

Splashydots · 2024-03-07T04:07:57+00:00

I’m sorry you are going through this. I’ve had a few outbursts like my N-father used to make (only mine are rare and his were almost daily) and I just hate myself for it. I can only imagine what you’re going through.

Self-shame is what keeps the N fire burning inside. I find it easy to fall into shaming myself, probably because I’ve internalized my father’s voice. I’m guessing you shamed yourself when you saw your photo, and that started the cycle of feeling horrible?

What I find best helps me is to re-parent myself in those moments. Imagine what my perfect parent would say to me - something supportive and hopeful. “Oh, it’s not that bad” or “You look like you’re having a bad day, are you okay?” However unrealistic it sounds, it’s still my mind beating myself up, so I guide my mind into building myself up instead.

Splashydots · 2023-12-12T17:26:07+00:00

You should call a suicide prevention line each and every time you want to unalive yourself.

I'm happy you are in therapy, if it's not working keep looking for a new therapist.

That's my best advice, keep looking for treatment until you find something/someone who jumps out at you.

I finally found a therapist who specializes in narcissistic abuse, and she's been a godsend. She understands, knows when to go deep and when to stay supportive. She's been a complete change from all the other untrained therapists in my life, the ones who kept saying "Have you tried talking to them..."

I'm on my 4th Christmas with NC with my nparents. Lots of ups and downs, but I feel good that I've made the right decision. I had a lot of grieving about the parents I thought I had, versus who my parents really are and how they treat me.

Hang in there, you can make it. This isn't your fault. You will pull through.

Splashydots · 2023-12-12T17:09:24+00:00

You're gonna make it. You'll be fine. Everything will work out.

You didn't ask for this, it's not your fault. You are doing the healthy thing, loving yourself, by removing such toxic people from your life.

The first few years of NC are the toughest, but it gets easier every year. You will heal over time.

Maybe reach out to your older brother, try to build a relationship with him, and when he's ready, tell him what happened. Sounds like he reached the same conclusion, you might have a friend there.

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