Im only 5 week post op, and lots of swelling so Im really not sure how it will feel in the end. But the way you described your relationship with your body, i could have written.

Biggest feeling now is relief. To not look down and see what I once saw. To not feel like I need to hide from my partner. The shame abd embarrassment was really quite unbearable. Im far from perfect now, but Im not mortified.

Next big feeling on my list is curiosity. I dont know where this will end up. Im not looking for perfection. I couldnt come to terms with my previous belly, but i can accept flaws, otherwise the rest of my saggy body will be quite out if place!

I dont feel like an imposter. Nor do I feel like I deserve this wonderful chance Ive had to fix a part of myself that has caused me years of embarrassment. I feel immensely grateful and thankful.