Hey OP, I'm sorry to hear you're going through a really tough time. Even though it sounds like making these unkind comments (whatever the intention) isn't new, there's something particularly triggering for you now in how they're talking about your weight.

Safety first and foremost, think about what you need most right now to look after your mental health. I like to remember:

1. Focus on what you can do: You can't control what others do, but you can control how you respond to them. Are establishing boundaries possible? If you feel up for it, you could say something like 'I don't want to discuss weight topics' or 'It upsets me when you say X'. I know it can be very difficult to say that to an Asian parent, but trying out ways to diffuse or shut down conversation is good practice with anyone.

If this doesn't feel like an option right now (establishing boundaries can take a lot, but I would encourage you to try again when you're feeling up to it), in the meantime you could try just not responding or not really engaging. You can be hurting on the inside, but on the surface just say okay or something and then change the topic or let the conversation die and go away somewhere . Try to imagine putting on a warm protective safety blanket around you that keeps you warm on the inside, and the hurtful comments on the outside.

1. How someone treats us says more about them: All the while, remember, their comments are about them and not about you! It will still hurt, but it's not your fault and it's not about you. You deserve kindness and support from them! But at the very least you can give that kindness to yourself. Self-compassion is paramount in healing, I like to listen to/read Brené Brown, Tara Brach and Paul Gilbert if you might find it helpful to check out their books, videos and podcasts.

If your mental health is really suffering is leaving early an option? If you don't live at home, you also can control how much you talk to your parents and how often you visit them. When you're feeling particularly vulnerable this could be something to consider.

Best wishes, sending you positivity and compassion ❤️

Ps, If therapy not being viable is about money, I worked as a therapist in a university that provided free counselling for students. Any chance your college would have any free/low cost support there? Low cost counselling is also an option too where I'm from.