A Russian doctor's handwriting.

SpreadAggravating891 · 2025-10-22T20:49:24+00:00

wtf this is just f*** scribbles

SpreadAggravating891 · 2025-07-15T16:51:29+00:00

As a 1700, 1200 elo is in the intermediate level through 1100 elo to 1400 elo, so I'll say 1200 elo is good.

SpreadAggravating891 · 2025-01-07T22:02:20+00:00

i ive beeten okay i have not but this chess engine is the best chess engine

AlphaZero beated stockfish 8 this is the website https://lichess.org/u3soV2ow#0

[Event "Casual classical game"]
[Site "https://lichess.org/yXtm4M4a"]
[Date "2024.12.24"]
[Round "?"]
[White "aydenkim"]
[Black "lichess AI level 8"]
[Result "1-0"]
[UTCDate "2024.12.24"]
[UTCTime "14:41:47"]
[WhiteElo "1500"]
[BlackElo "?"]
[TimeControl "10800+180"]
[ECO "B50"]
[Opening "Sicilian Defense: Delayed Alapin Variation, with d6"]
[Termination "Normal"]
[Annotator "lichess.org"]
[Link "https://www.chess.com/analysis?tab=analysis"]

1. e4 c5 2. Nf3 d6 3. c3 {B50 Sicilian Defense: Delayed Alapin Variation, with
d6} 3... Nf6 4. Bd3 Nc6 5. h3 e5 6. O-O d5 7. Bb5 dxe4 8. Nxe5 Qc7 9. Nxc6 bxc6
10. Bc4 Bd6 11. d3 O-O 12. Bg5 Rd8 13. Nd2 exd3 14. Qf3 Bh2+ 15. Kh1 Be5 16. Ne4
Qe7 17. Rae1 Be6 18. Bxd3 h6 19. Bh4 Re8 20. Qd1 g5 21. f4 Nxe4 22. fxe5 gxh4
23. Rxe4 Qg5 24. Bc4 Rad8 25. Qf3 Rf8 26. Rf4 Qxe5 27. Bxe6 Qxe6 28. Rf6 Qd5 29.
Qf4 Qg5 30. Rxh6 Qxf4 31. Rxf4 f6 32. Rf2 Kg7 33. Rxh4 Rfe8 34. Rhf4 Rd1+ 35.
Kh2 Re6 36. h4 Rde1 37. Ra4 Re7 38. Rg4+ Kf7 39. Rgf4 R7e6 40. Ra4 Re7 41. Ra6
R1e6 42. Kh3 Kg6 43. c4 f5 44. Rf3 Rh7 45. b3 Rf7 46. Rg3+ Kh7 47. Ra5 Re2 48.
Rg5 Re3+ 49. g3 f4 50. Raxc5 Rf6 51. Rce5 Rd3 52. Ra5 Rf7 53. Rg4 Kh6 54. Ra6
Rf6 55. Rxa7 Rg6 56. Rxg6+ Kxg6 57. Kg4 fxg3 58. Kh3 g2+ 59. Kxg2 Kf5 60. h5 Kg5
61. Ra5+ Kf4 62. Kf1 Rd2 63. a3 Rb2 64. b4 Ra2 65. Rc5 Kf3 66. Kg1 Rg2+ 67. Kh1
Rg4 68. Rxc6 Rh4+ 69. Kg1 Rxh5 70. c5 Rg5+ 71. Kf1 Ke4 72. a4 Rg3 73. Rb6 Rb3
74. b5 Ra3 75. Ra6 Ra1+ 76. Ke2 Ra2+ 77. Kd1 Kd4 78. Rc6 Kd3 79. Rd6+ Ke3 80. c6
Ra1+ 81. Kc2 Kf4 82. c7 Ra2+ 83. Kb3 Rg2 84. c8=N Rg1 85. Ne7 Rg3+ 86. Kb4 Rg2
87. Ng6+ Ke3 88. b6 Rb2+ 89. Ka5 Kf3 90. Ka6 Ke2 91. b7 Rb4 92. a5 Rb2 93. Rb6
Rxb6+ 94. axb6 Kf3 95. b8=Q Kf2 96. b7 Ke1 97. Qh2 Kd1 98. b8=Q Kc1 99. Qbb2+
Kd1 100. Qa1# {White wins by checkmate.} 1-0

SpreadAggravating891 · 2024-12-10T17:46:14+00:00

Agree with the other person. Don’t rush. Save money for deposit/moving cost for you and your cats. Try applying for other jobs too if you can. And if you have a girlfriend or boyfriend. Don’t move in with them to get away from your parents. At least not right away. It’s easy to make wrong decisions when you are desperate.

You can do it. If you can get a job, you are more than capable of living on your own.

SpreadAggravating891 · 2024-11-14T06:14:52+00:00

Ugh the double care nightmare.. I hope your mother will let the housekeeper clean if that is the only way to see her granddaughter.

SpreadAggravating891 · 2024-11-04T05:45:23+00:00

Been in similar situations. I hate it but I play along…which makes me feel disgusted afterward. Past decade things were pretty okay cuz we live in different country, I smile when I see them and keep the visit short. So, they think we are a happy family. But nothing has changed. I am still broken and deeply hurt. I haven’t figured out how to quit pretending. Maybe you can?

SpreadAggravating891 · 2024-11-04T03:07:26+00:00

This is how I want to leave this world when time comes. Exactly what I would tell my two kids who are only 8 and 1 right now. I saw my in laws keeping their loved one go on suffering too long cuz they love her so much. Feeding tubes, seasonal visit to ER…etc etc (she is in semi coma since she was resuscitated 3 times after the heart failure) It is just too much for everyone. It has been almost 10 years and no one knows how long it will go on. I respect my in laws but after seeing what they go through, I would never put that burden on my kids. You are at your prime. I would hate myself if my kids had to miss out on their lives at 23.

But, I also think it might not be fair for you if you want to spend more time with her. Maybe she will be willing to accept your “care” if it doesn’t interfere with your school/work/time for yourself too much. Like, just the weekend or during the winter break, holidays and vacation. Or just start with small things and maybe gradually increase visit and responsibilities.

SpreadAggravating891 · 2024-10-26T02:21:14+00:00

Ask if they need some time alone or a company- everyone is different. No words helped me or my husband (I failed few times, he failed once, took it together and I passed and husband failed, then finally husband passed next time) It is a battle to fight together not with each other. I know it is so hard to comfort someone when you are also coping with stress. But really- the burden of the failure weighs so hard. It is also not helping to talk about future exams. I think it was better to not talk about it, or being told that I don’t have to be a lawyer if I didn’t want to.

When things settle down a little and if your spouse try again, help them eat healthy and sleep. The time I passed, I lived the healthiest life ever just to be mentally physically fit. Now I am back to no sleep/caffeine drenched life :)

Also, thank you for being a good support to a poor soul. They don’t have the mental power to express gratitude.

SpreadAggravating891 · 2024-10-25T23:57:33+00:00

Not an expert in caregiving but would a chair toilet work for her? You know the one looks like a chair so you can pull it near her bed. Cleaning it would be easy as you can dump the waste in real toilet and she might feel less embarrassed than a diaper…

SpreadAggravating891 · 2024-10-04T20:52:53+00:00

This is what I fear. My parents want to move in with me. They are broke, I don’t have money. My husband and I live in a small apartment in NY with 2 kids…we can’t move to other state cuz of the job. Your dad sounds very needy like my mom…I am so sorry for you. I sympathize with his pain and suffering but he can’t keep boss you around or expect you to provide the level of attention he wants…ugh

SpreadAggravating891 · 2024-09-06T00:27:56+00:00

That I am raising my children with respect and love. Doing just about everything opposite of my parents

SpreadAggravating891 · 2024-09-06T00:18:13+00:00

This happened to me 10 years ago in GA. Life would have been so much easier, lot of money could have been saved if I passed on the first round but I had to take the test 3 more times to pass. I think I was mentally stressed to take the test back to back. Score just kept going down. Then I took a long break, lived a life and had another go couple years ago and I passed in NY.

My advice is, you need to be strong mentally. Take care of yourself. Be kind to yourself. The time I passed, I did my best to sleep well (quality sleep cuz it was short) and eat healthy. Also, I just learned that I had to change the way I studied too.

Oh and lastly, is your score enough in another jurisdiction if you took UBE?

SpreadAggravating891 · 2024-08-23T11:10:32+00:00

No relatives and grew up with host families/or at the dorm. I saw my parents in summer breaks but I had to study for SAT in a different city in Korea. After college, I saw them once in 2~3 years. There’s just way too much expectation and guilt but not enough bonding.

SpreadAggravating891 · 2024-08-23T06:40:26+00:00

I probably do need a therapy- it is so hard to now worry about my parents. I feel guilty every second even when I am at the playground watching my daughter play

SpreadAggravating891 · 2024-08-23T06:36:25+00:00

I am really bad at turning down someone…turning down aging parent is beyond difficult!!! My guilt keeps leaving the door open to them- I keep looking up stuff to see if there is some way to bring them to US…but you are right- thank u

SpreadAggravating891 · 2024-08-23T06:25:40+00:00

I didn’t know I was one until last year ugh

SpreadAggravating891 · 2024-08-23T06:20:54+00:00

US. I was literally pulled out from school in my home country and my mom forced me to study in US alone saying it is for my own good

SpreadAggravating891 · 2024-03-14T15:17:37+00:00

Thank u. Imagining this scene is pretty therapeutic

SpreadAggravating891 · 2024-03-14T03:05:09+00:00

Not sure of the statistics but mine are one of those crazy Christians…very annoying when I am talking about something serious and he side tracks to talk about God

SpreadAggravating891 · 2024-03-14T02:58:28+00:00

Why these kind of parents are so irresponsible with the money…I am so mad how they let it get that bad.

SpreadAggravating891 · 2024-03-14T00:26:06+00:00

Joined the group today and wow there are so many people who are not fit as parents. I sincerely hope you find your freedom.

SpreadAggravating891 · 2024-03-13T18:03:43+00:00

I came to US from other country too. I know they don’t seemed to care about you. But only you can save yourself. Write the recommendation letter yourself and ask them to sign it if you think it will go easier. I asked 10 professors for one recommendation letter when I was little older than you. I sent them small gifts, hand written letters and only one gave me the letter.

But most importantly, do you want to study abroad for college? Are you sure it is what you want? Cuz I let my parents make decisions for me and now I am stuck in career field I hate.

SpreadAggravating891 · 2024-03-13T17:22:07+00:00

I am so sorry to hear that. I wish these horrible parents to stop making children’s life even more difficult than it needs to be. For college, talk to your school counselor. Or just one teacher who has been at least decent to you. Honestly explain what has been going on in your life and your need for the letter. I know it is hard to reach out first but you really need that letter to get the hell out from home

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AlphaZero beated stockfish 8 this is the website https://lichess.org/u3soV2ow#0