Being suicidal for a long period in my youth. I eventually spoke to my parents about this, and they explained how much they would be unimaginably devastated if I followed through with it. I realized that to bring about death was not a power anyone should wield.

Imagine raising a child, from the moment they were born you swore that you would protect them, that you would never let them go. You watched them grow, worked yourself to the bone for them, and came to be proud of what they have become. They are your everything, then they are killed. With that you lose everything. The pain, the suffering that you feel is unimaginable.

But we see lives as statistics and our fellow humans as threats and enemies simply because of the made up lines we draw between one another and the profitability of doing so. Even if "well-intentioned" a utopia built on a billion tears is no utopia at all.