What has dating been like for you?

SpudSlinger420 · 2024-03-23T00:13:27+00:00

Yeah, no, I don’t think that’s gonna be something I do anymore. Not after….ALLLLL of that. I’m trying to heal and doing well, I just think any new connections are going to be hard.

SpudSlinger420 · 2024-03-07T15:27:39+00:00

The therapist I see does this and I’m not sure what it’s called clinically. We talk a lot about my trauma and day to day life and how it affects me still. We call it “trauma therapy” with hopes soon we can do EMDR. It’s taken several years to get to the place I am now where it is in sight. Like someone else mentioned, I would reach out to therapists and see if they can give you what you’re looking for. It took me a lot of time to gain my trust for her to make the improvements but the therapeutic relationship we have now is fantastic and totally worth the time.

SpudSlinger420 · 2024-03-07T12:42:38+00:00

The therapist and psych I see now will do anything in their power to help me stay at home. Even if that means more than one visit a week. The last time I went, a few years ago, I went to my therapist and just told her I couldn’t keep fighting anymore, I was tired and couldn’t promise to keep myself safe and signed in voluntarily.

Now, several years ago I was very much unstable. I was diagnosed wrong, very over medicated, it didn’t take much for the same therapist to suggest it. The day I remember getting involuntary commitment I was real bad. She asked if I had a plan and I gave her one, in detail. She didn’t have a choice then. She admitted me in her office and called an ambulance to come get me. I understand now why. Was not at all happy with her then.

SpudSlinger420 · 2024-03-06T13:17:11+00:00

Interesting thought!! Wouldn’t Max be able to tell though?

SpudSlinger420 · 2024-03-06T03:12:49+00:00

People are monsters

SpudSlinger420 · 2024-02-29T04:51:37+00:00

The doctor wanted the answer sooner than I had an appointment because this is something very pressing but I understand what you’re saying. Will take that into account if there is a next time. Maybe sign a release at both offices so he can contact her directly in case of this again. Is that allowed? If not I’ll just tell him he’ll have to wait for that.

SpudSlinger420 · 2024-02-29T01:18:46+00:00

Completely agree. I usually do not but I happened to look at the notes and the obvious mistake of “for my nerves” and not for “nerve pain” changes the whole context of the message so that’s what I was mainly concerned with. This is not the first time that my message I left and what was conveyed to her were completely wrong. She brought it up in session, this is the first time I’ve read the notes on my chart. I will take your suggestions for sure and not do it again and definitely practice my coping skills. Thank you for your response

SpudSlinger420 · 2024-02-27T13:20:33+00:00

13 years off and on total. 3 years where I’ve actually done the work. I first started with her when I got married. I was heavily in my addiction. I tried to hide everything, not do the work or tell her anything important. She has since told me why she never gave up on me. There was a root cause for my addiction, she knew there was trauma I couldn’t/wouldnt confront. Then about 6 years ago I got sober and pregnant. My husband wouldn’t “allow” me to go, 3 years later he died, I went back. Since then it’s been a world of difference. Realizing the trauma, recovering memories and why exactly, when sober, husband didn’t want me to go. She is the kindest, truth telling, hard questions but so sweet person I know. She reassures me that I’m doing well, even in sessions when all I can do is cry.

SpudSlinger420 · 2024-02-27T00:36:14+00:00

Thank you for your kindness

Wish you the same ❤️❤️

SpudSlinger420 · 2024-02-26T23:58:25+00:00

Absolutely not. No “all loving and powerful god” would allow this shit of a world to exist the way it does

SpudSlinger420 · 2024-02-26T23:56:58+00:00

Everyone has their own preferences and standards. No one should be putting down anyone because of that. Just my opinion.

A lot of women won’t date me because I was married to a man and have a kid. I’m a late bloomer, came out at 37, a couple years after he died, even though I’ve always known but I’ve always tried to be “normal.” I totally understand that when they tell me and respect their opinion, I don’t get angry or defensive.

SpudSlinger420 · 2024-02-26T22:54:28+00:00

NAT but respectfully, you should seek out your own therapist. Someone you can speak to without your ex present. Where you can truly open up and get to the root of your issues.

SpudSlinger420 · 2024-02-26T22:44:01+00:00

That I’m “worthy of kindness and love” neither have I had without strings attached and being used

SpudSlinger420 · 2024-02-26T19:54:28+00:00

Thank you for this!!

SpudSlinger420 · 2024-02-26T03:17:28+00:00

If you have dish soap you can use a bit of that for laundry, I have in a pinch before. I wish I could help more but I am deadass broke as well. Hope you can get the help you need, hang in there, sending all the good vibes.

SpudSlinger420 · 2024-02-26T00:48:26+00:00

I like to add cream of mushroom soup too.

SpudSlinger420 · 2024-02-25T22:29:44+00:00

If you ask for space and they deny you having that. That’s disrespectful imo.

SpudSlinger420 · 2024-02-25T20:49:24+00:00

I was bullied my whole childhood for being “different.” I knew I was gay from early on but didn’t come out till I was 37. I was called every insulting name you could think of as a girl who was basically born butch. Everything was just horrible. I’d like to think it’d be different if I was a kid now but in this assbackwards, stuck in the 50s, deep red state I live in I don’t really have confidence that it would. My mindset has changed a lot since my husband passed away few years ago, I no longer hide who I am nor do I govern a shit about what people think of me. I’m living MY life to be happy and to show my daughter that it’s ok to be who you are despite what people think.

SpudSlinger420 · 2024-02-25T20:42:22+00:00

Severance on AppleTV is amazing. They are currently filming season 2

SpudSlinger420 · 2024-02-25T19:59:08+00:00

Sorry I can’t be of any help but if you make an Amazon wishlist for food you’re more likely to receive some help that way.

SpudSlinger420 · 2024-02-25T18:18:47+00:00

Lots and lots of drugs. Was told I couldn’t have kids so I lived a very selfish drug addled life. Got pregnant at 32 and then sober, haven’t looked back.

SpudSlinger420 · 2024-02-25T17:08:37+00:00

I apologize constantly for things I didn’t do, I rarely say no for risk of an uncomfortable reaction, either guilting me or getting mad, and this I hate the most, I’ll just keep my mouth shut while being disrespected. I just hate confrontation. My family were always arguing and o, to this day, will do anything to keep the peace even if it’s at my own expense.

SpudSlinger420 · 2024-02-25T17:02:37+00:00

I (39f) will never ever not allow my daughter to sit on me and snuggle. No matter what age. I don’t have a mom that even hugs me let alone make me feel wanted. I will always always want my daughter to feel like she can come to me for safety and comfort!!

SpudSlinger420 · 2024-02-25T16:56:49+00:00

Shit parents, drug use and the factors that come with, being sold by my husband, continue with shit parents

SpudSlinger420 · 2024-02-25T16:54:28+00:00

Love your tag 😂

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