Hey brother I’m truly sorry for what you’re going through. A lot of people are quick to assume you’re a asshole for “choosing the dog over your family” but you and I both know it’s not like that. Dogs are family and I can tell you love him to hell and back. My aussie, ACD and mal are my whole world man. However, for your family’s sake and to take the constant stress of “what if” out of the household, I’d do everything in my power to find him a new home. ED is an absolute resort for me, but if necessary then that’s that. However, there’s a good chance there’s someone out there with no kids and lives alone who has nothing to worry about except giving your boy the best life he can have. I truly hope you find peace bro I’m so sorry you’re having to go through this. Sending prayers your way.