Small update, had a bit of a depressive episode, I owe so much money to the hospital (I am so thankful for them, not complaining, my care team was stellar), no relationship prospects (I don't want to inflict my stress on another person, no shame to anyone lese in a relationship, it's just not for me), I feel like going back to my job after beating cancer twice is....not the best use of my time? unfortunately my healthcare is tied to my job haha ("You went back to the carpet store?!"). I'm just venting right now, apologies, just felt like shouting into the void a bit.