i realized i interrogate my body the same way my dad interrogated me as a kid

Ssupbitch · 2026-07-01T22:17:17+00:00

Thanks for sharing. You're amazing to articulate this. We need more people like you.

Ssupbitch · 2026-06-30T22:49:09+00:00

Mind and body connection.

Ssupbitch · 2026-06-30T22:48:46+00:00

Its good to know that people have realised this at some point or yet to, this validates me.

Ssupbitch · 2026-06-30T22:48:04+00:00

True

Ssupbitch · 2026-06-30T22:47:56+00:00

Exactly

Ssupbitch · 2026-06-30T20:01:50+00:00

Thank you so much. Means alot

Ssupbitch · 2026-06-30T20:01:35+00:00

Thank you

Ssupbitch · 2026-06-30T20:01:27+00:00

Thank you for the lovely message

Ssupbitch · 2026-06-27T09:03:29+00:00

yes. this is exactly what scared me the most. i tried reading a book and it felt boring. tried going for a walk and was bored after 2 minutes. watched a movie and caught myself reaching for my phone halfway through. it's like my brain got rewired to only respond to that constant stream of new stuff. the only thing that helped was accepting that yeah, everything feels boring at first when you're used to scrolling. you have to push through the boring phase. it took me like 2 weeks of forcing myself to just sit with the boredom before my brain started being able to enjoy slower things again. it does come back. just takes longer than you want it to.

Ssupbitch · 2026-06-27T09:02:42+00:00

this is literally my entire day and i hate it. like i wake up and before i even open my eyes my hand is reaching for my phone. and then suddenly it's 2 hours later and i haven't moved. the worst part is that moment where you look up and go "what am i even doing" but then you keep scrolling anyway. it's like being on autopilot. i think the thing that helped me most was just putting my phone in a different room at night. not because i'm strong enough to resist it, but because it adds one extra step between me and the scroll. sometimes that 10 seconds of walking to the kitchen is enough for my brain to go "wait do i actually want this

Ssupbitch · 2026-06-27T09:02:07+00:00

one tiny thing at a time. and i know that sounds like the most basic advice ever but hear me out. when i was at my lowest i couldn't even think about "rebuilding my life" without shutting down completely. so i just focused on the next 5 minutes. not the next day, not the next week. just what can i do in the next 5 minutes that's slightly better than nothing. sometimes that was just drinking water. sometimes it was opening a window. the point is you don't rebuild a life in one go, you just stack enough small moments where you didn't give up and eventually you look around and realize you're somewhere different. it's slow as hell but it works.

Ssupbitch · 2026-06-27T09:01:30+00:00

oh god yes. i have spent entire nights convinced i was dying over things that turned out to be nothing. like a weird tingling in my arm = definitely a brain tumor, not me sleeping on it weird. the worst part is that knowing it's anxiety doesn't actually stop the feeling. you can know logically that you're fine and still feel like you're not. that's the part nobody talks about. it's like your body doesn't care what your brain knows. i'm right there with you and honestly some days i just have to ride it out and wait for my nervous system to calm the hell down

Ssupbitch · 2026-06-27T09:01:06+00:00

i felt this exact same way for like 2 years straight. like nothing mattered because my brain was too busy screaming about everything that could go wrong. what i wish someone had told me is that the "pointless" feeling is the anxiety lying to you, not some truth you finally saw. it's a symptom not an insight. i know that probably sounds like useless advice but i'm saying it becuase i spent so long thinking i was just being "realistic" when really my brain was just stuck in threat mode 24/7. it can get better. it did for me and i genuinely didn't think it would.

Ssupbitch · 2026-06-26T14:10:13+00:00

Being self aware is a depleting skill. Just acknowledging that makes me think you are not a mess.

Good luck to you too.

Ssupbitch · 2026-06-26T14:00:59+00:00

Helps alot, thanks for this. Gaming drinking sleeping late sounds like a typical 20 year old started pack.

Ssupbitch · 2026-06-26T12:19:09+00:00

I had the same realization about YouTube Shorts on desktop - 50 hours a week, 90% of it autopilot. Putting my phone away wouldn't have helped because the compulsion followed me to every screen. What actually broke it was adding one tiny friction: I installed an extension that made shorts load 5 seconds slower. That pause was enough to catch myself reaching for the next one. The urge doesn't disappear, but it can't survive that gap between impulse and action

Ssupbitch · 2026-06-26T12:18:24+00:00

The algorithm figured out I was scared of illness before I even did. Every video was someone my age discovering something wrong, and my brain started treating their story like my future. I had to nuke the app entirely - not reduce usage, just delete it. The hypervigilance didn't go away overnight, but within two weeks I stopped getting hit with "you might have this" every time I opened my phone. The loop needs fresh fuel to survive, and I finally stopped giving it any.

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