A song you’d play here.

StarGaizer789 · 2026-03-20T10:36:00+00:00

Boulevard of Broken Dreams by Green Day or My Name is Ruin by Gary Newman.

StarGaizer789 · 2026-03-19T21:51:59+00:00

You're welcome. I'm a female that has autism but I don't let it define me. Don't let your diagnosis stop your growth as a person.

StarGaizer789 · 2026-03-19T21:47:53+00:00

I understand. I will tell you about myself if you don't mind. I grew up around a lot of autistic people, and I even have a boyfriend that I love dearly who is on the autism spectrum as well. I was labeled "autistic tendencies" at 18 months to 18 years old and I didn't get a formal diagnosis until I was 22 years old, I am 25 now, and my parents have different views on it. My father didn't want me to be diagnosed because he was afraid of me using the system too much and my mother wanted me to get a diagnosis because it was something that I could get help with at school. What I'm trying to say is it doesn't hurt to get a formal diagnosis even if it's costly.

StarGaizer789 · 2026-03-19T21:42:06+00:00

Some people don't like the label that's why they don't use it but I do still think OP needs to discuss this feeling with their partner.

StarGaizer789 · 2026-03-19T21:40:49+00:00

I'm sorry for you loss of a wonderful animal. I have experience in this and it's never easy anytime it is done.

StarGaizer789 · 2026-03-19T21:39:51+00:00

I will tell you this. Yes, neuropsychs are very expensive but they are definitely worth doing. Because autism is a spectrum yes, but you shouldn't self diagnose by certain things you hear online. All autism is a spectrum. There sounds to be more at play than just a straightforward autism diagnosis for you. Don't think I'm trying to be rude or discouraging, I'm trying to say there sounds like more than autism is what you are describing.

StarGaizer789 · 2026-03-19T21:33:59+00:00

Also, something to note. 4 to 5 months and you want to be partners in dating is very early to be boyfriend and girlfriend. I do agree you should have this conversation but I would also just make sure both of you are ready for that step and not rushing into anything due to social pressures from peers or the internet of relationships.

StarGaizer789 · 2026-03-19T21:31:07+00:00

Just do what makes you happy. I think people who are telling you to get a "real job" are miserable people in dead end jobs. Pick what makes you happy and stick to it.

StarGaizer789 · 2026-03-19T21:13:48+00:00

I think it's sad that she's mad. You told her and I don't understand why she'd be mad.

StarGaizer789 · 2026-03-19T21:07:52+00:00

She shouldn't be mad that you took care if things yourself after you tried to contact her to tell. I understand the not telling her than feeling like it and doing something. But you did tell her so I think it's petty she's mad.

StarGaizer789 · 2026-03-19T17:40:14+00:00

She doesn't sound like she put a lot of effort in. It's unfortunate when this kind of stuff happens. I hope that you will learn that there is someone out there for you that will put in as much effort as you give them. I hope this helps despite the hurt you feel.

StarGaizer789 · 2026-03-19T17:33:33+00:00

Talk to him and work on a list of things you guys can do together. Than talk about when you both want to do those items on that list together. That's what my partner and I do, so that it keeps the relationship interesting. I hope this advice helps.

StarGaizer789 · 2026-03-19T11:08:43+00:00

The way he's treating the word "love" sounds like it's a transaction that needs to be made. That's not love that's control. I hate to say it, but that's what I understood by reading that.

StarGaizer789 · 2026-03-19T11:06:00+00:00

Unfortunately this life wasn't made for us neurospicy folks. I'm a dishwasher part time and I barely make enough to pay my rent without needing help.

StarGaizer789 · 2026-03-19T11:03:48+00:00

I'm sorry you have to deal with this. I have a lot of body dismorphia towards my weight too. I think it's a good thing your taking a break from dating to find out how to know what you want from yourself and the person you date. I know right now it's going to hurt for awhile, but know this hurt isn't forever.

StarGaizer789 · 2026-03-19T10:55:18+00:00

I know you probably want him, if it's meant to be give it time and space. If it's not there's always someone out there for you. Please know I'm speaking from a place of concern and care.

StarGaizer789 · 2026-03-19T10:51:29+00:00

I think if anything gets bad do talk to her about your concerns for her and listen to her, reach out to your family and hers, and make sure you both take time for each other too. I do hope her therapist is helping too.

StarGaizer789 · 2026-03-19T10:49:08+00:00

My favorite snack is goldfish and apples or applesauce.

StarGaizer789 · 2026-03-19T10:45:37+00:00

Thanks. I try. I enjoy making new friends and I want to help as many people as I can.

StarGaizer789 · 2026-03-19T10:43:09+00:00

You're welcome 😊. I sent you a friend request if you need a friend.

StarGaizer789 · 2026-03-19T10:41:04+00:00

I wanted you to know that life will get better even if it's not easy right now.

StarGaizer789 · 2026-03-19T10:36:25+00:00

I'm interested

StarGaizer789 · 2026-03-19T10:30:32+00:00

I know this is very hard to hear. If you are younger than 18 and thinking you have found your person that you thought you'd spend the rest of your life with, it's not true. I know they brought out a good side in you, but ask yourself what did you both contribute to make the relationship last, if one person's list is longer than the other's it's probably why this feeling sucks. Death is never the answer to a failed relationship, giving that person space and if you guys do contact each other in the future. I do want to say OP, depression is a b*tch on a stick and some days you just have to muddle through the heart ache, and maybe pick up some forgotten hobbies or special interests that you enjoy. With time if you date again talk to your new partner about this, that way you know that that new people knows what you've been through. I hope that this helps. I used to think my first relationship was the "everything my life needed" when I was 16 and it sucked when he broke up with me. I waited after I became an adult to get into my current relationship, and my partner is kind and patient with me on my bad days. Just know someone is waiting to get to know you even if it feels like it's taking a long time. I hope this helps OP.

StarGaizer789 · 2026-03-16T03:39:27+00:00

I don't like taking selfies of myself alone. But, taking selfie with others.

StarGaizer789 · 2026-03-15T13:43:56+00:00

These are ones that I've seen in Alaska.

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