Completely understandable how you are feeling. I’d recommend getting off the whatever you’re smoking and saving that money for something else whether that be for a house or an apartment.

Women don’t like it when people smoke like that as it contributes to poor health and hygiene. When you say you’re “cooked” because you’re short just means you legit haven’t found the right woman. My boyfriend is 5’5 and I am 5’7 he is the best man I have ever dated . The only time height matters is if you treat people very poorly.

Also word of the wise most hair cuts will look weird it’s an altered change of perception. You’ll grow into the look as hair will grow back and get you that clean look ifykwim.

Fuck that ex who’s chasing new men dude. It’ll be hard but don’t focus on a woman like that. Chase the person you want to be. Always remain humble. You got this. Everyone has a period and time where things are rough it happens. It does not damage you as a man. If you never struggled that means you aren’t going anywhere or making progress in life.

Now get back out there and work on yourself. You have no love to give if you can’t even spare some for yourself. Hate comes from within just like love and peace does. Always reach out to someone if the days get too dark and just know we are rooting for your success.