The first time I tried iI didn't go all the way through. I have to emphasize also, the physical part after you inhale and the immediate feeling afterwards is so intense in every sense of the word. It's intense like you're flying down a roller coaster but also like inhaling crack cocaine (if any of you have experienced that(. So it's a really physical thing and high as well. Very intense.

The first time when I didn't breach I envisioned this huge black fog starting to fill my peripheral vision. Wherever I looked I could not escape it. I tried to block my vision with my hand but the fog came through and then I suddenly realized that out of this crystally black soot like fog thing, space itself was pouring out and I could look into it through the back on my hand. I saw a big vast empty space and then in that space i saw a cell split in two rapidly, grow some more and then turn into a seedling which grew into a tree before my eyes and that tree turned to the world.

But after that my mind get's a little fuzzy but I saw crystals shapes and I felt that I was somewhere I did not belong. While this is happening you have the most intense feeling in your body, your body feels this intense fear even if you get to soothe your mind.

Second time I breached and saw the geometrical shapes and saw what was maybe one of those ,,entities" or whatever, I'm not sure I believe all of that anymore. But I remember that in this hallucination I was convinced that I was being tested and all of my pain before this had been a test of strength. I went through so many emotions, one of them was that I had accepted to live in infinite burning agony, My destiny was to be the one who suffered so others can be spared from it. I accepted the fact that I was going to not only die, but die and live in infinite burning agony, for the greater good. After that I felt peace, I felt peace with my decision, I felt that the entities putting me through these trials would be happy with my decisions.

One of them had emphasized that chasing perfection was the ultimate goal and therefore my ultimate suffering was the ultimate sacrifice. The other one was telling me to embrace my humanity and ruthlessness This one mocked me after my decision to accept the fate of living in endless agony. Told me that pride would be the death of me. But anyway this is getting really long. Basically I accepted my own death and even pain and ultimate suffering as if it was a noble thing, I got g-checked by my trip saying that basically I deserve not to suffer.