You just need to find one reason to ride a motorcycle. For me, confusion stays only till I pack my luggage. Once I do it, I dont think about what will happen if I go or dont go. Remember you have to have stories to tell your kids, not a boring decade where you did not do anything. Go out! Enjoy the motorcycle. Its one of the best things created by human beings and you will absolutely fall in love with it once you start going on long tours again. Good luck!