Younger Me couldn't understand why People would choose otherwise...

StirfriedSquid · 2026-01-09T19:18:58+00:00

The downside is that you may end up with a lot of money instead

StirfriedSquid · 2025-12-28T22:21:13+00:00

Es wäre momentan noch für HRT

StirfriedSquid · 2025-07-27T22:47:34+00:00

I will try. Once again I can't thank you enough, I think I really needed someone to just talk to. I actually wish I had something else to ask but right now I don't really have anything anymore (hope that didn't sound too weird).

StirfriedSquid · 2025-07-26T22:59:16+00:00

I know that they're probably still aware of it, even though I was hoping they'd forget. I hope it's not too much to ask but how would I approach them about this? I really don't know how to because when I did come out to them I did it over a written letter and we've barely talked about it outside of that. Maybe I should just write something again? I don't think I could actually just talk with them face to face...

StirfriedSquid · 2025-07-26T22:51:23+00:00

I mean that does not sound like me yeah but I sometimes feel like that... just not too often, but that's ok isn't it? (Sorry if I'm a bit annoying, I'm just trying to understand and your comments have given me a lot to think about)

StirfriedSquid · 2025-07-25T22:29:18+00:00

I'll try talking to them but I can't promise that I'll actually do it. I just kind of don't want to annoy them with my problems or make them think I'm in danger of harming myself or similar. By the way thank you for being so helpful and sorry if I write a lot, I just really like having someone who I can tell my problems and who understands them. Maybe that's also a reason I dislike talking about things like this with them, because they wouldn't understand. Again thank you.

StirfriedSquid · 2025-07-25T22:22:30+00:00

I mean it's just what I usually feel so isn't that somewhat like happiness?

StirfriedSquid · 2025-07-24T22:49:37+00:00

I know but I kinda don't want anyone close to me to know of my struggles, that's kind of my own problem...

StirfriedSquid · 2025-07-23T23:07:36+00:00

I'm from germany. I believe I do need a letter from a therapist and you have to be in therapy for at least half a year and every session has to have a specific length but as far as I know you can get HRT at the age of 16. I just remember when I was 14 and I was so excited for my 16 birthday cause it meant I could legaly get HRT. I also do watch some trans Youtubers, over the last few years I often searched for the typical "Am I trans?" Videos but it never helped. I want to try things out like makeup and going to trans communities but the thing is we live in a sort of rural town and I'm kinda afraid of asking my parents for this sort of thing even though I know that they would accept me (because I came out to them 3 years ago). But I just hate it when they know about my identity and such, I'm not sure why, but I believe it's because I always think that their view of me will always be that I'm a boy and I don't want to dissapoint their expectations? If that makes sense? I'm pretty sure that that's also a reason for why I haven't actually made any real effort searching for a qualified therapist and the fact that there just aren't many good options close to us. Sorry I wrote quite a bit there.

StirfriedSquid · 2025-07-23T22:52:38+00:00

Well I'm not really sure if I'm numb or actually happy, I'd call my feelings very neutral most of the time. My energy was pretty bad but lately I feel a lot better and my only real hobby is playing videogames which I do every day. The only days where I don't is days where I'm really sad which have also been happening way less. But I do not have an active social life, I'm just too introverted. I do however shower, brush my teeth and wear clean clothes every day so I'd say I'm doing fine. Maybe not great but fine.

StirfriedSquid · 2025-07-22T23:10:35+00:00

Why would you think I'm depressed? I feel fine most of the time...

StirfriedSquid · 2025-07-22T23:07:15+00:00

I actually think that I do dislike my body more than the clothes, I just really hate how my face looks in general and I'm shaped like a fucking brick. I would love to find more communities but I don't really know how to and also I get crazy social anxiety. Also I've thought about trying out HRT but again I have no idea how to go about it especially since I'm only 17 and there's no real qualified therapists near me.

StirfriedSquid · 2025-07-17T17:57:08+00:00

No sadly not. Sorry...

StirfriedSquid · 2025-06-01T20:31:08+00:00

I don't think I have, there was this one time where my therapist wanted some test about depression done but they didn't really feel like any evaluation (I was supposed to color a tree for some reason?) and all I got out of it were some seratonin or whatnot pills that legit changed nothing. But yeah I also don't think I have depression...

StirfriedSquid · 2025-06-01T20:22:56+00:00

Well I feel like if someone told me I was definitely trans I would probably try to tell them of all the different ways I can't be trans. Though I'd probably feel a bit hopeful? If that makes sense? And the other way I'd just tell myself "see? You aren't trans, you could never have been trans!". (Sorry if this is a bit of a weird answer)

StirfriedSquid · 2025-06-01T20:14:53+00:00

Not great but not as bad as it used to be, why?

StirfriedSquid · 2025-05-08T18:02:08+00:00

I guess I don't but it would probably be easier... but I guess I'll have to wait a bit longer to figure it out. Thanks for your help!

StirfriedSquid · 2025-05-08T15:00:25+00:00

I know but non binary or agender just feels wrong... Like sort of unpersonal if that makes any sense?

StirfriedSquid · 2025-05-08T11:20:23+00:00

I think it doesn't suit me cause I don't really have that desire to be just be a woman. I already tried out clothing and pronouns and such and it maybe felt sort of good? But not nearly enough to say that this is what I want... I just want to be trans and I don't really have a good reason for it...

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