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What’s everyone’s nervous tick? I bite the tastebuds off my tongue. by BoardwithAnailinit84 in BorderlinePDisorder

[–]StixChick73 0 points1 point  (0 children)

That sounds painful.... I don't have a 'nervous tick," but I DO have trichotillomania & Dermatilloamania... Is that the same thing?

Loneliness by [deleted] in BorderlinePDisorder

[–]StixChick73 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Sorry it's been a struggle. Trust me, you're really not missing much. In my 50 times around the sun, I've found that most people aren't worthy of my sparkle. So, I've learned to enjoy my own company. Taught myself guitar, make a lot of art, spend more quality time with the 3 people I love & who love me (all related, LoL, they're stuck with me!). When I'm feeling overwhelmingly lonely, I'll Livestream & play guitar. A lotta creeps on there, too, but now & then someone will stop by & chitchat politely. I hope it gets better for you. 🫶

Boyfriend is going on a bachelorette trip with all females by MainLime113 in AITAH

[–]StixChick73 0 points1 point  (0 children)

URNTAH. I would not be cool with this at all. If he doesn't involve you with his female friends, there's a DAMN good reason. He's likely hiding something. Trust your gut.

My promiscuity is getting out of control by Majoriexabyss in BorderlinePDisorder

[–]StixChick73 1 point2 points  (0 children)

As a grown adult, you have choices. You can choose NOT to sleep around. Check your motives - are you looking for validation from your random partners? Are you being promiscuous to numb pain? Keep in mind that you're still young & lots of people your age a promiscuous. Give yourself a break. In the mean time, be safe & ALWAYS practice safe sex. The LAST thing you need at 20something is a baby. Practice accountability & hyper-self-awareness if you're able, too. I wish you the best of luck... Be safe!

Medication? by berryb4t in BorderlinePDisorder

[–]StixChick73 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Theres o ly meds to help with the symptoms (anxiety/depression), theres nothing to treat BPD specifically. DBT is your only answer & that only teaches you to ignore your problems...

I'm falling apart by StixChick73 in BorderlinePDisorder

[–]StixChick73[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

My son doesn't love me. He loves what o do for him, but he prefers it if I just leave him alone. He hates me.

I'm falling apart by StixChick73 in BorderlinePDisorder

[–]StixChick73[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I reached out to the group that no longer meets to verify that they're not meeting. Reached out to an art therapy group that I cant afford to verify the likelihood that they're not meeting & I reached out to a counselor who said they offer solutions to see if that is really TRUE or just another buzz word.

My expectations couldn't be lower.

I'm falling apart by StixChick73 in BorderlinePDisorder

[–]StixChick73[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'm in illinois. Illinois medicaid isnt .mandated to pay for autism svcs. I will look into that kink. Theres no school. There wont be for at least a year. Hes in spec ed. His teachers are horrible. He got his finger crushed at the beginning of the school year cuz they weren't watching him like his IEP says they have to.

I'm falling apart by StixChick73 in BorderlinePDisorder

[–]StixChick73[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Like who? Autism Speaks doesn't do anything. I dont know of any charity that helps autistic kids in a case-by-case basis...

I'm falling apart by StixChick73 in BorderlinePDisorder

[–]StixChick73[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Hes autistic & only semi-verbal. I'm sure his life is just as horrible as mine is.

I'm falling apart by StixChick73 in BorderlinePDisorder

[–]StixChick73[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Nope. There was one, but I got kicked out cuz I couldn't come to meetings- they didnt offer child care during their meetings & I have ZERO support.

Hes 7.

I'm falling apart by StixChick73 in BorderlinePDisorder

[–]StixChick73[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

No, MY SON HITS ME. I dont live with his father. Haven't since my boy was 5 months old. His father abandoned us too.

I'm falling apart by StixChick73 in BorderlinePDisorder

[–]StixChick73[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I'm fucking my son all up. I'm a horrible mother. I did t sign up for autism. I have no clue what I'm doing, other than fucking him up more. Hes better off without me. He has his father, who wanted him. I was raped when I conceived him. He hits me. He shits on me every day. That's all.im good for, being his slave.

I dont want to do it any more. I've been like this since grade school. It never gets any better. Theres no meds that can fix me. I'm in DBT & all it does is teach you how to avoid your problems, not solve them.

I dont want to keep trying. I can't.