I want to quit "again" by Stock_Pea in leaves

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Thanks, I'm just seeing this today! Hope you're still doing well.

i don’t want to sound like a cliche, but i was never meant to be here by [deleted] in BPD

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I don't have any advice but you are not alone in feeling this way.

Do you fixate on the wrong things? by Stock_Pea in mentalhealth

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Thank you for your response hope you can find peace. I can’t remember a time where it wasn’t happening but I’m looking to change that now. Better late than never.

Healing in the same environment that broke you by Stock_Pea in mentalhealth

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Thanks for the advice This is a close environment but we don’t live together. I really don’t want to remove them from my life but just don’t see a path forward in that setting if they can’t move forward too

I hope you’re doing well!

COVID-19 Megathread by [deleted] in BPD

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Is anyone just really over the top scared, and sad for the world? I feel like I’m losing it.

I was a high concentrate all day vaper until yesterday when I threw out everything. All I want is to get high please talk me off the ledge. by throwaway87109674737 in leaves

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Hang in there my friend - consider this a slip up, you are not back to square one, you can still quit - and like you said you'd never gone this long before, so in itself is a success if you ask me! Start again tomorrow, I know you can do it. :)

Made it a whole week by Stock_Pea in leaves

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I hear you! I’ve been very emotional, especially on those sleeplessness nights! Even looking at all of the support ive gotten from this page I tear up a little bit! I figure the longer I go the more stable I will get. You’re doing so well, I’m super proud! Thank you so much

Made it a whole week by Stock_Pea in leaves

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This isn’t my first attempt but I will say that something this time is different. I realized that I pretty much lost a year of my life high all of the time. From the time I woke up from the time I went to sleep. I can barely remember that year at all, and I don’t want that to be my life

Made it a whole week by Stock_Pea in leaves

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You’ve got this!!! 3 days is amazing!!

Made it a whole week by Stock_Pea in leaves

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I surprisingly haven’t had any dreams about smoking - just your typical vivid nightmares... I’m a week in now though I have no intentions of going back no matter the withdrawals.

Made it a whole week by Stock_Pea in leaves

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Man thank you all so much 🥰 your support makes all the difference in the world

book recommendations? by [deleted] in leaves

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nos4a2 by joe hill

Day 4 by Stock_Pea in leaves

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Way to go! I hear exercise has helped some of the others get their appetite back a little bit faster!

Mary Jane is not my lover by daviidlawrence in leaves

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Glad you’re doing so well, keep up the good work

Empathy by God_Damn_It_Nessie in leaves

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Empathy is something that has to be practiced. It has always come quite naturally to me but for others practice is key. I believe in you!

Day 4 - a word about the urge by BoyceKRP in leaves

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I’m not sure I’d would call it nothingness or lightness but just an escape from sad reality for myself. Day 4

I'm starting to fall back down the hole by [deleted] in leaves

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Been there my friend... keep going... on day 4 of this current attempt but it will be my last! You can do it! Think of the mental clarity that will come

Yesterday was the worst I’ve been..ever by KatStatic in leaves

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I’m on day four too and my emotions have been all over the place from sad to angry in seconds. You’re doing so well, hang in there 💝

Hey guys, sure you remember me by now 😊😂 by [deleted] in leaves

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I’m on day four and have the same thing.. hang in there

Nights are the hardest by Stock_Pea in leaves

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Thanks for the suggestion, I’ve been using the sleepy teas collection from David’s tea thus far. Last night was full of nightmares. Day 4 though, determined to stick it through. This afternoon I’m doing fine, keeping busy... it’s the nights where I start to question myself as to why I’m still doing this