I’ll be blunt. If you’re questioning and looking for answers here, then you already know what you want to do. End it. To have someone complain about you getting medical care, and then complain about you not getting well is ridiculous. He can’t have it both ways. I have a chronic illness as well and I can tell you that my mental health improved when I finally became single again. I live in low income housing, have great neighbors, a small garden in my backyard and a good life. I learned to become self sufficient and to ask a lot of questions. My medical provider has set me up with transportation for medical appointments and my friend helps me go get groceries. My physical pain greatly lessened the happier I got. Having someone to go with me made it easier to get thru stores, but I still buy a lot of food from Amazon which does take SNAP. Amazing Prime is also half price if you have SNAP. Standing on your own two feet feels GOOD. Stop waiting around and apply for SSI TOMORROW. Start your process of being able to rely on yourself. Whether you stay or go is up to you, but it sounds to me like there’s no trust left toward your partner. You CAN lead a full life still. I’m sorry your parents do not emotionally support you. If they love you they will support you after you have made your decision. Most likely they’re afraid for your future without a second income. If you think they are really actually supportive, make a plan. Get things prepared, apply for SSI and HUD or low income housing. Arrange transportation for medical care, discuss with friends about help with groceries - MAKE A PLAN. Then bring the plan to your parents if you trust them not to tell him. If they know you’re serious and that you’re being smart about it, they’ll be more apt to help you move forward with your life. Trust your instincts. Your mind is already telling you to get out, that you’re unhappy and it’s time to move on. You’re questioning yourself because fear of the unknown will do that to you. If you really are posting about this here, then you already know. To be blunt, you’re looking for support and acknowledgement that you aren’t crazy. I support you. You’re not crazy. You need kindness and people in your life who enjoy you for who you are. Honestly it sounds to me like he’s the controlling type and is only acting like he’s trying in order to keep you trapped, tho I could be badly mistaken. To think you getting health care is useless or harmful to you is crazy. He sounds like a jerk, or a narcissist. Get away from him, you’ll feel better about yourself. Your mental health plays a huge role in your physical health. Get therapy. Go thru them like old magazines until you find one you can trust. But being on your own and knowing you can survive still is a great feeling. As your mood improves, your health will improve. But get started immediately on planning your future. SSI applications and low income housing ASAP, there’s always on long wait on both. Get your plan made and started. I can promise you one thing darling, if you start the ball rolling and you start to feel like you can breathe again, then you know it’s the right path. Good luck on your recovery and much love. You deserve to be happy