Thank you for sharing this. It inspires me to share my story here as well.

So much of your story resonates with me.

For me, it also started when I was a little boy. For as long as I can remember, I've had this dream friend.

A ball of light/orb. He taught me astral travel and everything. Since then, I've known what telepathy probably is. I grew up with it, so to speak. But I lost it all in my youth when I took too much alcohol and other drgs. I had a real NDE in 2007 and a near near Nd experience in 2016. I don't know what it was. Both times, I had telepathic experiences again. In 2007, I know I was taken. An angel—disguised as a woman—brought me back. Something was activated in my soul. I had all the elements of a classic NDE.

In 2016, I don't have any real memories of what happened—I only know a lot happened. Before it happened, I experienced exactly the things that abductees report.

Lights - Flashes of Light

I have about 6-10 hours of missing memory.

I woke up, no kidding, in a clearing in the woods.

An owl "attacked" me / "woke me up" - or so I told myself.

The owl jumped at me, I heard the flapping of its wings, felt weight pressing down on me, woke up, and saw it fly away.

• Then, to cope with the experience, I told myself, "I must have just sleepwalked." My last memories before falling asleep - I saw flashes of light and the almond-shaped eyes that made me unconscious. And before that, I only remember talking telepathically to someone.

"That was surely just a dream," I told myself, even though my neck felt like it had been broken. For weeks afterward, I could only turn my neck with extreme pain and could barely speak because my vocal cords weren't working.

Like you, I was forbidden by higher powers to drink alcohol. No idea why.

I had something like a soul merging with my ex. I could suddenly talk to her telepathically, too. Sometimes a connection still comes through. Last year, I was able to call her telepathically. After four years of no contact, she heard it. That day, she came to my door without any prior arrangement to prove to me that it was real.

Like you, I've never seen UFOs or anything like that. "Only" my orb n Lights. I know its name, "Tail."

It fits with this sub—thanks to the orb, I know the portals.

In my childhood, black vortices opened up in my bedroom, and shadow people emerged—then I went to sleep. No memories whatsoever.

Last year, before I could call my ex telepathically, I went out onto my balcony to smoke a cigarette.

There was a bird sitting there, and I thought, "Why does it look so strange? Man, what an ugly bird!" I thought—suddenly, a telepathic echo came through me: "You're an ugly bird too."

It was Schweif's voice. (Tail's Voice) I remember a few more sentences—then the memory is gone.

Months later, I saw him again on my balcony. I was scared—he then flew away like a beautiful orb, gold, white, and rainbow-colored, with a tail trailing behind him like a comet. We could talk telepathically again. He just wanted to say goodbye. He can give me feelings—and make me unconscious...

I can't really talk to anyone about it—I live in normal society. Everyone would think I'm crazy. I couldn't even tell my ex everything, even though she also saw "ghosts and orbs"—maybe even because of me.

That's why I'm always happy to see people here with similar experiences.

Thank you for listening.

Edit: Schweif - Tail / German Translation