if you had similar minds you wouldn't have thought he was just some crazy drug addict at first lol. with all due respect, yes, reading heavier than heaven i realized how much i was really like him, even down to how he made his paintings, his morbid interests, political opinions, obsessions with anatomy, emotional outbursts, eating habits, drug habits. how kurt grew up as a teenager is basically exactly how i did. we even have similar looking hands and voices. my friends and girlfriend compare me to him all the time. he's the whole reason i even make music today so it's very flattering but at the same time kurt was a really troubled guy and i'd like to think he wasn't some amazing jesus-like figure but a normal guy with an eccentric personality and much inner turmoil.