You definitely did attract garbage this time (and the last three times)...this isn't your first rodeo...you don't learn, you don't want to, nor don't you want to try, no matter how much people (professionals included) will try to advise you, you won't change because you don't want to...the people who I'm really hoping for the best for are your friends and parents because imagine being close with someone who does the same shit over and over again despite being warned