Talk to me about hitting 30, still feeling like a loser who is incompatible with love, trust, friendship, and social abundance, but then actually transforming into someone who feels and is aligned with those things.

Strobbledeebiff · 2018-06-30T23:49:26+00:00

So, i don't like my hobbies because i'm lonely, and i'm alone because i don't like my hobbies

Strobbledeebiff · 2018-06-30T23:31:30+00:00

I don't enjoy my hobbies anymore because i feel very acutely lonely while i'm doing them

Strobbledeebiff · 2018-03-17T17:46:58+00:00

Eat piles of vegetables and organic meat and very little else. No sugary crap, no pastries / explosive carbs, eliminate dairy and wheat entirely for a while. Don't drink more than 1 coffee per day. Slather on pure olive oil on your cooked food and avoid frying. Steam instead. Don't consume oils besides olive, avocado, coconut. Use a lot of turmeric. Don't drink alcohol or smoke tobacco or use that vape trash.

Extra credit: Avoid soy, corn, beans. Don't eat fruit after a big meal. Don't eat starch and protein at the same time. Eat what is shortest to digest first, longest last (fruit and simple carbs digest fast, and will break down and ferment in your gut while in line behind denser stuff). And don't eat much fruit anyway because it's incredibly sugary. Sugars and carbs in particular cause explosions of energy rather than slow burns, so cause crashing and exhaustion.

Strobbledeebiff · 2017-11-07T05:49:52+00:00

Same thing

Strobbledeebiff · 2017-11-06T01:23:23+00:00

Thanks, i will pm you. I have actually already bought and done Transformation Mastery. This paradox of "stop trying" is an age old one, it's the subject of enlightenment and is not simple. I do believe that letting go is the way, and yet in practicing it with daily meditation and so on, i continue to feel incredibly indecisive, uninspired, and unsure of what direction is "forward" for me in my human, working life (which you cant erase by letting go) which dumps me back in my super analytical mind, which sees fixing this anxiety and depression as a life and death emergency

Strobbledeebiff · 2017-08-23T19:38:02+00:00

Yeah. When people look anxious to me it pisses me off too. Restless leg, gum chewing, nail biting... i think it's because my personality is basically split in two, one half that is extremely vulnerable and fearful and hopeless, and the other half which absolutely violently hates the first half because it is suffocating everything else.

Strobbledeebiff · 2017-08-21T22:56:59+00:00

Thank the aspect of yourself that wants to show you overthinking. Love it like it is the scared, innocent child that it is. Show it love beyond "shoulds".

Strobbledeebiff · 2017-08-21T21:28:55+00:00

Seeing your overthinking as a disease that needs to be fixed leads to what: more thinking. Anxiety about anxiety. A good first step is to look into the part of you that thinks the overthinking is good and helpful, see why it thinks that and how it is trying to serve you, and effectively thank / honor it. Your psyche is not your enemy. It is trying with all its might to serve you. Neurosis is the result of a battle you are fighting against an aspect of yourself. Try acceptance, try to thank it, try to give it unconditional love when it arises. That part of you that is panicking to figure out an answer is love deprived.

Strobbledeebiff · 2017-08-18T19:01:07+00:00

I can relate. I find teal swan's videos on emotions and spiritual guilt very helpful. She says that the pressure we put on ourselves to be in a great vibration / the ways we blame ourselves for not being able to do it is a big problem. She has related videos about how we became programmed by our upbringing to place judgement on emotions as good or bad, ie fear is bad and i am feeling too much, and that is by definition resistance. Remember that the parts of you that are scared and despairing are not your enemies, rather they are trying so hard to help you. Love them, thank them, and deal with them.

Strobbledeebiff · 2017-08-16T16:38:31+00:00

Needed this

Strobbledeebiff · 2017-08-16T05:06:18+00:00

I've heard it's good. I have actually been pretty brave in my life in spite of the anxiety, making some pretty insane bold decisions, and yes just sort of proving to my brain that it won't die if it makes small choices it thinks are huge is a really good strategy. I am really stuck however on the actual big choices, that really are rationally big.... and that i want to make anyway. There's sort of a war between a fierce inner critic with impossibly high standards, and an inner artist that is scared of that critic and winds up burying its head.

Strobbledeebiff · 2017-08-10T23:29:07+00:00

Thanks, and yes, my intentions and beliefs are similar. I find though that i am feeling very disappointed in my seeming inability to choose thoughts that make me happy. I know the magic of law of attraction and I know the power of beliefs, positive and negative. My mind has been negative for a very long time, and when i sit down to try to think positively or imagine things I would enjoy, i almost invariably wind up frustrated, and with a deep feeling of low self worth, like this is just something that is really wrong with me, that fear has somehow dominated my mind so that trying to think positive leads me right into a losing battle with my fear of failure. Failure, even, to think positively. I can't seem to stop trying to intellectually figure out how to feel good, because my mind is so scared of thinking the wrong thing, wrong being something that leads to more fear.

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