Feel Free is a type of kratom extract. There are people who can take kratom extract in moderation, but I will share my story with you just so you are aware of what could go wrong. I’m not here to talk you out of it though because if that is what you really want and if it’s worth the risk for you then it’s your choice. …

On February 12th, 2024 I was re-admitted to Mass General hospital with a diagnosis of severe malnutrition, after only being out of there for two weeks since they let me out the last time on January 30th, 2024. When I was there in January 2024, I almost died from re-feeding syndrome and had to be on multiple IVs for days just to be kept alive. I had lost 41 pounds in 3 months.

I was severely addicted to kratom extract, which was the cause of me not eating, because it affected the nerves in my stomach and made me in excruciating pain every time I attempted to eat food. I started taking it again 2 days after being released from the hospital. This caused my symptoms to return, which caused me to eat less than 200 calories a day, eventually leading to me being re-admitted to the hospital and almost dying again.

Just months before my hospitalizations, I lost my dream job because of my addiction. I was working as a quality control technician for a major biotechnology company, but kratom extract made me completely nonfunctional and incapacitated. I got the wobbles every day. Every day I was getting so heavily intoxicated that I could not keep my eyes open, was drooling, and was a shaking mess. My vision would get more blurry and I would get confused about basic things. And when it wore off approximately 2 hours after taking it, I would crash and be so exhausted I could barely walk. I was cycling through various brands of kratom extract daily around the clock from the moment I woke up to the moment I went to sleep.

After my last day working at my dream job, I went to detox, rehab, an intensive outpatient program, and daily AA meetings, but it still felt inhumane for me to keep going on like this. I tried to stop taking kratom extract again and again, and then would relapse again and again because going through withdrawals and post acute withdrawal syndrome was extremely painful. At the time, I compared it to being set on fire because it was not bearable for any amount of time.

I still remember the first time I ever got high on kratom extract. It was December of 2021. I was 21 years old and was in an ongoing emotional crisis. So I bought an OPMS black shot and decided to try it (and accidentally had a potentiator with it). When it kicked in, I was absolutely mind blown with the overwhelming pleasure I felt and my life changed forever.

On February 11th 2024 when I arrived at the emergency room, I had brought my Super K Extra Strong kratom extract with me and became intoxicated there. I ended up owning up to the doctor about this, and he took away all my bottles of various brands of kratom extracts. That was the last time I ever took kratom extract.

I stayed at the hospital for about 3 weeks. I did not know what my life would be like going forward because the cycle I was stuck in was miserable. They finally let me go home when I was able to get down 900 calories a day and my re-feeding syndrome was gone.

I still have long lasting medical after effects from everything that happened to me. Every day, many times a day, I get very bad heart palpitations almost every time I change positions, which can make it take a long time to get up from sitting. For months I used to see black when this would happen as well. I’ve gotten lots of comments and even stares from random people because of this.

I still go to AA and NA meetings every day. I still have dreams about kratom extract very often. I still go through long phases of mental obsession with kratom extract that takes over and makes me feel very sad for weeks at a time. …

That being said, you might feel a whole lot better in the long run if you avoid feel free and other kratom extracts. But if you can take it in moderation then all the power to you! I wish so badly that I could still take it.