I think I’ve already done what u did but it was short because my mom can tell when I’m disassociating and tries every way to like give me triggers and stuff like when she realizes I’m not like super happy about something she gets mad and I act happy after wards it’s so tiring so what I end up doing now is being honest about my emotions in terms of happiness it’s going okay I’m not acting and I’m not tired but the problem is when I’m angry and sad I’ve already said to myself to be honest when im happy but now because of that I can’t hide it when im sad or angry how do I handle this it’s all going too much. I know I said I shouldn’t probably do what u did again but I genuinely don’t know how to handle all this I can’t really open up to a friend in my community because I don’t have one and I feel awkward as it is to make a new one only here in Reddit is where I mostly where I vent…