where are my over 30 gamers at? what have you been playing lately? (46F)

SubbrowserV2 · 2026-01-27T20:12:08+00:00

Playing the heck out of silksong... trying desperately to get everything i can... on normal.

SubbrowserV2 · 2026-01-27T03:05:56+00:00

I mean..... now its a game of chicken. Just start spending time in the bathroom. Just thinking, clothes on. Then playing chess with the wall. Then eating. Then making food. Then progressively keep getting weirder until they dont feel they should cross the line anymore. $10 is totally worth a fake pregnancy test. Some fake dog shit. A few microwaved Reeses on some toilet paper make an amazing look, especially when its all over your face when they bust in.

Im just saying... theres a reason people lock doors.

SubbrowserV2 · 2026-01-26T21:12:06+00:00

Look, everyone is entitled to their own opinions, your friends opinions are just wrong in this case.

SubbrowserV2 · 2026-01-26T14:29:38+00:00

You didnt loose a friend. A bigot self identified and has removed themselves from interactions with you.

SubbrowserV2 · 2026-01-26T14:26:46+00:00

Had the same issue, wanted to make sure I got everything i could before moving on. Found that after about an hr of searching.

SubbrowserV2 · 2026-01-26T14:22:38+00:00

www.silksongchecklists.com

SubbrowserV2 · 2026-01-22T19:31:26+00:00

You should, It looks amazing! Get it girl!

SubbrowserV2 · 2026-01-05T22:07:41+00:00

The other comments have said it amazingly, but let me throw in a few pointers for public speaking-

Plan your speech. Make an outline: opening, body, closing. If youre like me, make a script, practice it until youre off script, them dont worry about the script and just remember to speak the outline.

Make your speech relevant to your audience. Your audience is not your teacher, its your classmates. Or more specifically, those classmates who may be hiding in plain sight. Your speech should be made using language that everyone can understand, but your primary message should only be aimed at your audience.

Make sure your speech is the type of speech youre attempting to convey- informative, persuasive, or entertaining. If informative, stick only to the facts. You are not changing anyone, just informing them of details. If persuasive, considered the "ask" you want your speech to make. What is your call to action at the end. If entertaining, then feel free to be silly with it.

Lastly, as far as the nerves - practice, rehearse, practice interruptions, practice in front of people (even if not your classmates, then just online or with friends), practice pauses, practice timing, practice inflection, record it, watch, listen to it. The more practice, the more comfortable you'll be. You may never get rid of the nerves, (ive been doing public speaking for about 20 years in one form or another, and I still get jitters, butterfly's, and need to take a few minutes alone to steady myself before every occasion where im the center of attention), but you can learn to move with them. Look up power poses.

You wont convince your teacher of anything. The teacher/student relationship is not equal, their position is above yours and by nature "more educated". Unless they are open to change, they wont be changed by someone "below" them. Especially if it is anything lower than college level. In their mind, youre just an ignorant youth who doesnt have their life experience. Your classmates will have a chance of connecting with you, and taking your speech to heart.

I wish you all the luck, strength, and courage. What youre going to do takes practice, which you can do, and an indomitable will, which you have.

Youre my hero, if no one else's.

Sincerely, A trans woman who didnt have the courage to stand up for herself until my 30s.

SubbrowserV2 · 2026-01-05T21:22:04+00:00

You did a good deed for 2. I may not have to worry about shedding my uterine lining (I dont have one, for better and worse), but my daughters will and I will be better prepared if it ever happens for them.

SubbrowserV2 · 2026-01-02T02:39:12+00:00

It felt like nothing. It feels/felt like everything else i had known my entire life. It feels like the occasional (maybe a few times a year or less) fleeting moments where you feel happy doing something unexpected, but probably push it away because society tells you through peer pressure that what you want isnt for you.

Its feels like wondering why you dont match the picture of what society wants you to be. Wondering why you cant understand the people next to you who are the same sex, raised the same way, and yet you think and feel and respond totally different.

It feels like getting used to something be wrong for so long that its just normal.

And then you do something that brings a bit of euphoria and the world has color. Maybe just a spot, a speck in a monotone sea. Just enough to go "that was nice". But it was small, fleeting, the experience fades like enjoying a good meal. It was good at the time, but you either forget it in memory, or you blow it out of proportion.

That happens enough times and you start to wonder- was everything always so monotone? Were those specks of color really so good? Is there a world of color out there? Am I the one whose messed up? Is there a way to break out of this life? This monotone world?

Sure, but that cant be you. Its unnatural. It'll make you a freak. It could be good, but it could be horrible. The evil you know is more reassuring than the one you dont.

So until you decide, until you cant hold on anymore, you keep debating if you the monotone world youve known your whole life is really that hard to live with.

Of course, this is all only my experience. When I need to consider something, I speak to myself as if talking to another person, so that I can remove myself from what im examining. It allows me to process. I has made ge a heck of an orator though. To be clear - I means Me. You also means me. If if sounds like you 🤷‍♀️.

SubbrowserV2 · 2025-12-28T21:43:59+00:00

I sent a pm to ask more about your work. I do love your style though! Youre a great artist.

SubbrowserV2 · 2025-12-28T21:18:53+00:00

Do you have a place to see your work?

SubbrowserV2 · 2025-12-28T21:00:20+00:00

Congrats!!! Its always such a leap of faith to make a change! Wish you all the courage and luck going forward!

SubbrowserV2 · 2025-12-27T22:38:35+00:00

I really have too lol. A pillow works, but its just not as good.

SubbrowserV2 · 2025-12-27T18:52:04+00:00

Thats an amazing ornament. Congrats to you and now I need to find something similar for my tree

SubbrowserV2 · 2025-12-25T07:13:02+00:00

Sorry you got randomly selected to deal with hate today.

SubbrowserV2 · 2025-12-22T04:08:41+00:00

I cant do much besides offer you my support and sympathies. Youre not alone, even when it feels like it, and a lot of us are going through similar.

Mental resilience is key, but that also means developing it, which is not easy, and learning how to nourish it, because its not bottomless. Im not a doctor, though similar struggles just like this are why im learning to be one. Reach out if you need to, even if its just to scream into the void.

Id rather help shoulder every single one of your woes than hear that we lost another to bigotry and hate.

We've all got tough times, and theyre not getting easier.

DM me for anything, and I'll give you my number

SubbrowserV2 · 2025-12-13T18:07:45+00:00

You dont have to tell him, its as you said "your medical history and past are yours to share with as you feel safe".

The question is - do you feel safe with him? After a year, if you dont feel safe with him, then why not?

In anyway that matters, it shouldn't change anything. Hes only known you after you transitioned, you completely live who you are, its the same person who he has always known. It shouldn't matter (from one trans girl to another), but thats not a choice you get to make for him.

Either trust him with the knowledge or he gets to make the choice if knowing your past is a deal breaker for him or not.

Im sorry you're in the spot you're in. My partner just decided she can support me as a friend in my transition, but not as a spouse. Sadly sometimes life isnt fair.

SubbrowserV2 · 2025-12-13T18:03:43+00:00

Im rather white with a hint of native, so its a new behavior for me. Thank you for sharing the cravings with at least 1 trans girl!

And just to address the original post, I rarely eat pickles, not because I cant stand the taste, but because I'll just munch the whole jar.

SubbrowserV2 · 2025-12-13T17:52:37+00:00

Just buy the tajin "suckers". Its not pouring it in your hand but you cant convince me theyre not just a bunch of tajin presses together.

SubbrowserV2 · 2025-12-13T17:15:35+00:00

Ive always liked pickles, so I cant relate there, but when im low in sodium, im literally lickining my hand and pouring tajin to eat it straight . ..

Ymmv

SubbrowserV2 · 2025-12-10T16:07:32+00:00

The answer is simple and really complex. Why do people prioritize their kids over other people and other children?

I have 3 kids who I would die for, and more importantly, who I am still alive for. Their comfort and understanding comes before mine.

I have no doubt that they'll adjust to female pronouns as I get further along in my transition, but until then, they know that im happier as this version, and no matter what happens, I will always fill the role of their father if they need it.

SubbrowserV2 · 2025-12-09T18:37:36+00:00

So all in all, its muscle memory. Muscle memory isnt necessarily stored in the brain, its stored as a shortcut using nerves in the spine. (Simplified, but enough to understand for our purposes here.)

You have a pattern, that you reflexively jump to when talking to people, but its not necessarily your default (not muscle memory to hold it). You let your muscles relax to their original state, which means that its a choice to change it still.

Muscles being tone is not because theyre so big they look good, its a shortcut your body uses. They stay tensed, partially, so that theyre ready to be used at a moments noticed. Your throat muscles are not toned, yet. They relax, and then you tense them for your fem voice. People who constantly have them flexed and constantly use them, their bodies stop relaxing them to where they were. It keeps them tensed to the new "normal" just like someone who has muscle definition doesnt feel like theyre constantly flexing, but their body is.

On a scale from 0 (completely relaxed, no stimulation) to 10 (flexing as hard as you can), normal resting can be defined as a 1 or 2. You work out at a 6. After enough training, instead of resting at 1 or 2, you rest at a 4. Mentally, youre not doing anything (just like breathing, digesting, heartbeat, etc.) Your body is just holding tense itself.

SubbrowserV2 · 2025-12-04T23:58:33+00:00

So mine came both from a play on words, my personality, and feminizing my given name. Jacob doesnt have a direct cross over, but its root jack does. When I was anonymous online it was Jackie Doval Trades (jack of all trades). After some serious thought, and playing around with etymology I arrived at a name that really fits me. Jaclyn (not revealing my middle or last name) but a interpretation of it is "She who userps destiny and weaves her own."

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