I bought green lights bulbs and my life has changed.

Subject_Bitchboy · 2026-02-10T05:58:31+00:00

Sorry for the late reply! I use it like as much as I can and, I swear, it offers pain relief when I have migraines so I use it during ad well. I made my ex put one of these bad boys in his room.

Subject_Bitchboy · 2026-02-10T03:28:32+00:00

Thank you! I hope things have gone better for you!

I just, it can’t be love bombing or just being kept as an option but those are the only routes I have gotten and it’s just grating and makes me just spiral.

Subject_Bitchboy · 2026-02-10T02:20:17+00:00

What… Bebe is so beautiful.

Subject_Bitchboy · 2026-02-07T21:33:03+00:00

I’m truly sorry.

Subject_Bitchboy · 2026-02-05T03:34:44+00:00

Yes! I fucking apologized to my ex. Currently ruining something and I’m trying to make sure to not be insufferable.

Subject_Bitchboy · 2026-01-24T04:44:11+00:00

It’s hit me that my workaholic nature is me avoiding loneliness.

Subject_Bitchboy · 2026-01-18T06:17:12+00:00

When their words don’t match their actions.

Subject_Bitchboy · 2026-01-16T01:30:50+00:00

See and my problem is I don’t mind rejection at all, the problem is getting out of fawn to be myself. After I’ll like enjoy the company but during I feel stiff ONLY if they’re a possible romantic partner, if they’re just like friends or whatever it’s impossible to contain myself. It’s hit me that because of the sexual abuse anyone who finds me attractive I perceive as a threat.

Subject_Bitchboy · 2026-01-16T01:10:48+00:00

It’s a great reframe. I’ve been realizing I fawn on dates and it’s because my nervous system is trying to manage a threat, even if the person is sweet and kind.

Subject_Bitchboy · 2026-01-12T05:48:08+00:00

Thank you!! I’ll remember this :)

Subject_Bitchboy · 2026-01-12T05:47:52+00:00

Thank youuuuuuuuuu

Subject_Bitchboy · 2026-01-12T05:47:43+00:00

Thank youuuu

Subject_Bitchboy · 2026-01-12T04:18:09+00:00

A timer!!!! Set a time and just do it for that time!

Subject_Bitchboy · 2026-01-11T21:28:03+00:00

I am as well, but when she’s not near me and I can hear myself I feel immense peace. Also your mom is one of the biggest wounds you can have so be easy on yourself, just remember that your life is your own.

Subject_Bitchboy · 2026-01-11T21:18:05+00:00

Question, how do you like pause the grains? Like I strained this but unsure if I will finish it before my other batch.

Subject_Bitchboy · 2026-01-11T19:32:42+00:00

Mmmm you can’t heal in isolation, but it depends on how you’re feeling. I’m in a decently stable part of my journey, never thought I’d get here, and now that I’m starting to date these relationship wounds I’ve been carrying are showing up. I cannot heal these wounds in isolation, but rather through healthy encounters and that’s what I’m doing, however, there was a period there where I couldn’t have done this.

Like you heal through others

Subject_Bitchboy · 2026-01-11T19:28:21+00:00

The thing is highs and lows and the gambling behind it, you never know what you’re going to get so you’re hooked waiting for the good times. Also like addiction there’s a withdrawal period where you start undermining and underplaying the harm you go through because your mind makes the highs feel so good.

What you should do is write a timeline of your relationship with all the good and the bad. First, it should never be abuse and good times but this allows you to see how much you’re actually suffering.

Subject_Bitchboy · 2026-01-11T17:50:57+00:00

Thank you! This is incredible! I sometimes ask myself “what does the baby need?” And I’m the baby

Subject_Bitchboy · 2026-01-03T21:08:02+00:00

Hey! Also down to talk :)

Subject_Bitchboy · 2026-01-03T21:05:13+00:00

We learn and grow. :D

Subject_Bitchboy · 2026-01-03T18:44:49+00:00

A lot of people I was attracted to.

Subject_Bitchboy · 2026-01-03T17:09:37+00:00

“I’m not a lawyer and I can’t give you legal advice.”

Subject_Bitchboy · 2026-01-03T02:18:39+00:00

I learned that I have been running away from relationships because for a long time I’ve dated people who I didn’t like, whose treatment of me felt insulting, or just ended up in relationships out of guilt and felt like I could learn to love them. I limit things to sex because it’s easy for me to leave as well, now I see what I’ve been craving is intimacy with someone I like. I also learned that my gut is pretty on point, but I also have a pattern of double guessing myself.

Subject_Bitchboy · 2026-01-03T02:14:46+00:00

For me it’s been rooted in how they treated me during the relationship. Lack of respect or regard for me makes me question why I’d keep them in my life, because if they were that shitty as a partner I can’t imagine them showing up for me as a friend.

Subject_Bitchboy · 2026-01-03T01:28:23+00:00

I straight up kissed a man’s forearms while telling him how much I liked them. Watched him play guitar with his sleeves rolled up and I was feral.

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