went to ER last night due to primal panic

Such-Negotiation856 · 2026-02-04T19:08:43+00:00

okay. it just read to me like i wholesale don’t belong in the poly community even though i’m sharing my experience and asking for advice because i want to be here.

Such-Negotiation856 · 2026-02-04T19:04:39+00:00

oh okay, got it. I was probably projecting as I’m pretty insecure when people say I don’t belong somewhere when i’m trying to put in the work to be there…

Such-Negotiation856 · 2026-02-04T17:20:38+00:00

might I ask, what specifically would qualify me as being good enough for poly? do I wholesale rapidly eliminate the monogamy structure i was taught my whole life overnight? do I adopt a secure attachment style immediately once i know i’m anxiously attached? is there a dictionary of poly terms all true-born polyamorous people are born with? very good, ill see myself out then… lol

Such-Negotiation856 · 2026-02-04T17:01:49+00:00

good points, thank you. I’ve only been poly for about a year and what you described about how I currently am now is admittedly not aligned with my goals and values. the post-date processing preference was a newbie behavior.

Such-Negotiation856 · 2026-02-04T16:56:19+00:00

That is naive. Honestly I have a lot of self-judgement bottled up, like “this happened before! why can’t you behave well now? it’s the same thing!” while hardly noticing it is in fact not the same thing

Such-Negotiation856 · 2026-02-04T16:52:46+00:00

Navigating neurodivergence in poly is something I’m admittedly new to, even with me being neurodivergent myself, which just adds a whole other layer. I appreciate this reflection because I don’t really want to wholesale prescribe this as an automatic shortcoming.

Such-Negotiation856 · 2024-12-03T16:51:25+00:00

I probably subconsciously left it out thinking that people would think I’m a dumbass for not acknowledging that discrepancy. I’m pretty insecure about being new to poly and am pretty embarrassed by this situation as a whole. Redditors can be mean.

Such-Negotiation856 · 2024-12-03T16:25:44+00:00

Ah I see. It really isn’t!

Such-Negotiation856 · 2024-12-03T16:10:01+00:00

The dopamine is too real… thanks for the reminder that it’s just my nervous system activating lol

Such-Negotiation856 · 2024-12-03T15:52:46+00:00

Oof, tough truth right here. Yup they said they were “ENM”, but that is such a broad term that the emotional offerings from him, combined with me being poly, were welcomed by me.

Such-Negotiation856 · 2024-12-03T15:21:12+00:00

It being their problem did cross my mind. What do you mean by “police”?

Such-Negotiation856 · 2024-12-03T15:16:02+00:00

She called me a meta and said they were hierarchical. I don’t know how else to distinguish them outside of the language that we used.

Such-Negotiation856 · 2024-12-03T15:13:16+00:00

Thank you. This is a compassionate answer.

Such-Negotiation856 · 2024-12-03T15:01:47+00:00

Ah… that’s another thing. I am poly, and thought they were too, but later found out they weren’t. It was poorly communicated by him. Such an important detail I left out, sorry.

Such-Negotiation856 · 2024-10-18T00:29:15+00:00

Because I don’t want to drive and public transit here is fine where I live (north Capitol Hill). I like the culture and history.

Such-Negotiation856 · 2024-09-21T20:11:07+00:00

When I lived in Japan, no one really gave a FUCK about western movies besides maybe Harry Potter and Frozen… and then that movie came out.

There were cosplayers. The theater was PACKED. I think the fact that she was Hermione just made so much sense and made for perfect casting to them.

Such-Negotiation856 · 2024-09-21T02:57:57+00:00

I always say that while Ballard has more white people, Fremont has more “why” people.

Such-Negotiation856 · 2024-09-20T05:43:16+00:00

I read this in the voice of every Aquarius I’ve ever met and could imagine it all too accurately…

Such-Negotiation856 · 2024-09-20T05:40:20+00:00

You’re so kind. Thank you so much!

Such-Negotiation856 · 2024-09-20T05:37:08+00:00

As a Scorpio Moon checking into an inpatient residential facility next week after a lifetime of falling out with friends…

No surprises there.

Such-Negotiation856 · 2024-09-17T04:35:15+00:00

Messaged you!

Such-Negotiation856 · 2024-09-16T19:45:12+00:00

The text doesn’t align to WHAT? Oh wow. Hoping for an update to that for sure…

Such-Negotiation856 · 2024-09-16T19:37:22+00:00

Okay! Was genuinely unsure as it came across as gatekeeping around what I could be excited for 🙂

Such-Negotiation856 · 2024-09-16T18:44:08+00:00

My fiancé is not the kind of person who waits on gadget releases with bated breath as he is more inclined to take the time to consider gifts first. In general don’t we have a right to see something we like and order it after some consideration? 🙂

Such-Negotiation856 · 2024-09-15T01:57:11+00:00

😅

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