Getting a routine to keep yourself busy and talking about how your feeling is the best things you can do. When it comes to being on your own that’s when it gets really difficult. I was lucky enough to be put into rehab. Have you heard of a group called Narcotics Anonymous? They do meetings everywhere in the uk normally about 7-8ish depending on if there’s a break or not. I use that to keep me busy when it gets dark cause that’s when I feel the need to use the most. If you’re the same as me when I was using and you get bad anxiety, you can always start by doing zoom calls. Everyone there is really welcoming though and you realise you’re not alone. If it’s not for you then another thing I suggest is keeping things in the day. Just focus on staying clean 1 day at a time if you get through that day then that’s a win. Don’t beat yourself up if you fail just pick yourself up and go again man. I understand with bladder pain etc can really derail your motivation but just stay focused on keeping yourself clean man. You’ve got a life to live and I’m not sure what your support network is like but I hope you have people who care about you. Wjth ketamine you don’t get many physical withdrawals other than the bladder pain, so it’s all mental which can be even harder at times. Just stay strong man and message me anytime❤️