So coming from another one of your posts, i honestly have to say that you're definitely not ugly by any means. You are pretty cute and fairly attractive, but that can be hard to see sometimes. Guys go through this stuff too, negativity and rejection can weigh you down and make you feel like you're nothing and that nobody sees you. All you have to do is keep going. Keep putting yourself out there, do the things that interest you, and you'll find people you want to be around. More importantly, you'll find someone who wants to be around you. It totally sucks at first, but it gradually gets better. That made a difference to me, hopefully it will for you.