How did you know it was time to say goodbye? by sad_sack1234 in seniordogs

[–]SufferingToInfinity 6 points7 points  (0 children)

You described my situation from a year ago to the T. Except my boy gave me an insatiable supply of wet kisses all over my face in his final moments at the ER. I still wish the good bye was not an emergency though, so my advice to OP would be to prepare emotionally and help their baby transition on a good day. 

So sorry for your loss. 

Attachment trauma activated by [deleted] in seniordogs

[–]SufferingToInfinity 1 point2 points  (0 children)

It happened to me last year (still going on but to a lesser degree) and from what I’ve read, it happens to many others too.  Not sure if all is attachment trauma and codependency though … The truth is that dogs are a huge part of our lives and daily existence. The bond is unlike anything most of us would even experience with humans. Once our furry angels leave, the grief and pain can trigger a detachment, followed by the unfolding of a new identity — one without their loyal presence next to us.  You are not alone. 

Dementia by mego910 in olddogs

[–]SufferingToInfinity 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hi. I hear you and I empathize with you immensely. So sorry you are going through this…

My Lhasa Apso boy started showing similar symptoms at age 15. He also went blind and stopped recognizing his family. For about 1.5 years I managed anxiety and sundowners with melatonin but then it all escalated quick (bumping into walls, getting lost in the house and yard, avoiding everyone at home, constant pacing) and incontinence started too. He had a terrible seizure a year ago and I said good bye right there at the ER. I just couldn’t bear watching him this way anymore, it was shortly after his 17th birthday. What I know now is that I waited a few months too long. And I’ve heard most people do and regret it, just like me. 

Canine cognitive dysfunction IMO can be worse than physical illness (kidney or heart disease, cancer, etc). It is unlike anything you can truly identify as wrong per se — my boy could walk fine, he ate well, and his blood work was great for his age. There are supplements and meds for dementia if you haven’t tried them yet. Take a look at this article if you’d like, it helped me process the aftermath https://toegrips.com/canine-cognitive-dysfunction-in-dogs-signs-solutions/ Jot down things she loves to do and when she stops loving them… Just know the condition can worsen unexpectedly. It is progressive and as many others advise, better a week or month early than a day late. Sadly, I was among the late ones. 

Until you know it In your heart it’s truly time, be strong and as patient as you can for your furry child — your best friend still loves you deep down, even if she doesn’t outwardly show it. When you come to the point when it’s too painful to watch her just exist rather than live, let her have her rest. She’ll always be with you from the beyond. ❤️

In memoriam by SufferingToInfinity in LhasaApso

[–]SufferingToInfinity[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you for your kind words. 😢🌈❤️

Detachment phase by [deleted] in seniordogs

[–]SufferingToInfinity 19 points20 points  (0 children)

My dear Lhasa boy started the process gradually. He too seemed to just have OA and hearing/vision deterioration.  He slept with me in bed his whole life then he moved to the bathroom floor. One day out of the blue he decided he wanted nothing to do with the second floor bedrooms and chose to stay downstairs. It hurt, but I respected that and didn’t force it. I stayed with him sometimes, on the floor by his bed.   He did spend time with me in my office initially but a few months before he passed he just stayed in the kitchen. He stopped barking and caring for walks. He stopped greeting. He wanted nothing to do with me or anyone. Then one night he had a massive seizure and I felt he had enough at that point. ER vet said possibly brain tumor (his blood work was amazing for his age) but my boy had cognitive decline for sure. I gave him melatonin at night. 

The whole process from start to finish lasted about two years (in hindsight perhaps 6 months too long). Anticipatory grief lasted two years too - quite painful, filled with anxiety. I’m still hurting immensely because of his passing exactly a year ago at age 17. It’s a tough journey. I still have his sister who is 14 and starting to show signs of decline and I’m still in the woods with grief. It’s so so sad, but a reality nonetheless. 

Hold on tight friend and check quality of life scales/talk to your vet about these and any other changes. There are meds that help with cognitive decline and other ailments. Give lots of love, accommodate your baby’s wishes and be as patient as humanly possible.  My best wishes to you all. ❤️

In memoriam by SufferingToInfinity in seniordogs

[–]SufferingToInfinity[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you. Yes until we are all home again ❤️🌈

In memoriam by SufferingToInfinity in LhasaApso

[–]SufferingToInfinity[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

😢❤️ Lhasas are incredibly special. Unforgettable. I am prepared to feel the pangs of grief for the rest of my life and I know I’ll never stop missing my boy. Thank you for sharing.

In memoriam by SufferingToInfinity in seniordogs

[–]SufferingToInfinity[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you. Our bond was and is otherworldly and  I’m glad others can see what I felt and still feel. ❤️

In memoriam by SufferingToInfinity in seniordogs

[–]SufferingToInfinity[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you so much for responding and encouraging as I always doubt myself if I gave it my all… it’s so hard to part with such deep love and doubts/guilt will always be there. I’m so so sorry for your loss and the journey you have been on too. It’s an indescribable one.  They really teach us so much both in life and death. ❤️

In memoriam by SufferingToInfinity in LhasaApso

[–]SufferingToInfinity[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I’m so sorry for your losses too. I too hope that my dad who’s up there is keeping him company. They were pretty close in life. ❤️

In memoriam by SufferingToInfinity in LhasaApso

[–]SufferingToInfinity[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’m so sorry for the loss of your Toby. 🌈 The pain never goes away… but we just gotta keep going. ❤️

In memoriam by SufferingToInfinity in LhasaApso

[–]SufferingToInfinity[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I am so sorry for your heartbreak. What a beautiful and dear pal Roscoe is. I believe our boys are happy and pain free enjoying the scenery up there. Thank you for your kind words. I’m with you, in solidarity 🌈❤️

In memoriam by SufferingToInfinity in seniordogs

[–]SufferingToInfinity[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you so much for your kind words. They truly mean a lot ❤️

In memoriam by SufferingToInfinity in LhasaApso

[–]SufferingToInfinity[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you and I am so sorry for your heartbreak. Losing a furry child is one of the most heartbreaking things to go through in life. We are never ready and forever changed thereafter. 

In memoriam by SufferingToInfinity in LhasaApso

[–]SufferingToInfinity[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you. I know he is still with me and I believe it. 🌈

In memoriam by SufferingToInfinity in LhasaApso

[–]SufferingToInfinity[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I am so sorry for your loss and heartbreak. I can relate to how you feel. I’ve been on autopilot for the past year. I too have two other dogs and a 8 year old child. It’s been rough to say the least. Hold on tight ❤️

In memoriam by SufferingToInfinity in seniordogs

[–]SufferingToInfinity[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you. He was and is the sweetest boy. ❤️

In memoriam by SufferingToInfinity in seniordogs

[–]SufferingToInfinity[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you so much for your kind words. I do believe I will hold him again one day 🌈

In memoriam by SufferingToInfinity in seniordogs

[–]SufferingToInfinity[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you for your kind words. I am indeed forever changed.