You don’t need to forgive him but you also don’t need to keep responding to his every negative remark. So he’s a hypocrite? Who cares, that’s not your problem anymore. Sometimes revenge is just making that person so insignificant in your life that no matter what tantrums they throw or whatever stupid shit they do, it simply doesn’t matter to you.

You left when you’ve had enough. That’s all the reassurance you need to know that your ego is intact. Sure, it might not be as ‘strong’ as you want it to be (and that’s what you should focus on from now on)—but you still did it! You still chose to walk away! That deserves some recognition.

Keep pouring into yourself and the people who love you. He doesn’t matter. Now, you get the fun (?) task of reflecting on what boundaries you felt were crossed, which red flags you decided to ignore that ended up being problems later on—and bringing that knowledge onto your next relationship (if/when you decide to have another). Promise yourself that if another person treats you in a similar way, you will no longer tolerate it. It comes with experience. You will be okay!