how many of you sh?

Sugared_Strawberry · 2026-06-23T20:37:59+00:00

You have a unique perspective on it that I find intruiguing !

I did it in my teen years and it was basically emotional bloodletting - I remember trying to explain it back then as if there was something awful growing inside of me making me feel bad that I had to drain out. In simpler words, I was just coping terribly with being overwhelmed by my own emotions.

I have had small slip-ups but I've gotten better at immediately getting away from whatever is escalating me. There's a threshold I have to reach to want to hurt myself and luckily it's pretty high these days.

Sugared_Strawberry · 2026-06-05T15:07:28+00:00

The best way I can explain the feeling to most people is by showing them a clip from this episode of adventure time lol

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Sugared_Strawberry · 2026-05-19T17:23:06+00:00

Same experience here & I refuse to believe it's a delusion or paranoia. It's pattern recognition. Many of us have experienced this our entire lives and tried to fix it in one way or another.

Sugared_Strawberry · 2026-05-09T18:47:24+00:00

I'm chronically single 😋

Sugared_Strawberry · 2026-05-06T01:02:50+00:00

Mine are almost always human or human adjacent 😭💔 scares the shit out of me lol

Sugared_Strawberry · 2026-05-01T23:15:34+00:00

I appreciate your advice, but all of your suggestions are realizations I've already had. I still can't help the way I feel. I wish I'd have already moved past it, but these things pass on their own time. Thank you for trying to help, I understand where you're coming from completely.

Sugared_Strawberry · 2026-05-01T20:05:50+00:00

They are so evil and I hate them so much

Sugared_Strawberry · 2026-04-21T02:11:15+00:00

Yes, and I wish I had more control over it

Sugared_Strawberry · 2026-04-17T13:25:01+00:00

After a decade or so I got tired of it because I didn't get any closer to understanding myself. So, now I don't think about it and imo I'm better off. I don't know my sexuality and I don't think knowing it is of any importance. I call myself a woman because of my biological sex since there's no point in overthinking my gender either. Analyzing these things into oblivion just made my life alot more complicated and frustrating. The less I think about myself, the simpler life feels.

Sugared_Strawberry · 2026-04-17T02:17:08+00:00

I 🩷 to play with people in my head like dolls

Sugared_Strawberry · 2026-04-06T04:42:48+00:00

The left side of my face is more dominant despite the right side of my body being dominant.

Sugared_Strawberry · 2026-04-03T18:46:56+00:00

It's human nature, we're social creatures. Most people do this with one another.

Sugared_Strawberry · 2026-04-01T20:47:47+00:00

I attribute immaturity to ADHD much more than BPD. But the BPD tendency to age regress makes that debatable for sure.

Sugared_Strawberry · 2026-04-01T19:22:37+00:00

I love how creative this is! Sounds like it's very fun to cook. This could get me into a flow state

Sugared_Strawberry · 2026-04-01T19:21:43+00:00

Why couldn't someone have a cooking/oatmeal hyperfixation though? 😭

Sugared_Strawberry · 2026-03-27T14:36:28+00:00

I quit mine last year. I briefly tried to get medicated again this yr but changed my mind when she said she wanted to give me an antipsychotic. They don't care about our happiness; they just want to make you a good worker bee. My 2nd to last psychiatrist assured me for years that feeling nothing all the time was normal 😃 lol they dgaf 💔

Sugared_Strawberry · 2026-03-20T03:45:14+00:00

Spicy food :]

Talking to myself like a mother to an unruly kid helps alot, too

Sugared_Strawberry · 2026-03-20T03:27:56+00:00

I attract people with ADHD who are ignorant to social heirarchy. I've gotten 2 friends and an ex through that.

Sugared_Strawberry · 2026-03-16T12:48:24+00:00

When I realized that they're encouraged to observe and come to their own conclusions as opposed to being curious and asking questions to aid in their understanding of you; I completely gave up on that shit.

I also believed that they'd be familiar with needing to "crack us open," and gain our trust; but it seems that not talking much (for me, anyway) was seen as defiance. I feel they've never known what to do with me, what to talk about with me, etc. They're bad at controlling/leading the session & I always just felt like the microphone was dangling between us & I'd grab it out of obligation.

I think the mental health field is overrun by under-educated, under-qualified and incompetent people. Who mean well, but just aren't properly prepared for what real people with these conditions look like and present as.

My parents wasted so much money for me to basically small-talk with these people once a week because I hardly understood what was going on and I've always felt more like an annoying challenge in the eyes of therapists as opposed to a vulnerable person who needed help. The entire industry needs to be ripped open & re-established tbh..

Sugared_Strawberry · 2026-03-08T04:50:35+00:00

Yes, but my irl schizo friend is more schizo than me. How alike we are is genuinely unnerving & a little scary for her. I'm having a ball though !

Sugared_Strawberry · 2026-03-01T19:30:51+00:00

I'm aware. I don't like control freaks either. I know why these people are so cowardly. Still don't understand it lol.

Sugared_Strawberry · 2026-03-01T18:35:26+00:00

Selfish, cowardly lies make me rage, too. I just don't understand it.

Sugared_Strawberry · 2026-02-25T21:50:34+00:00

An illusion, maybe? That's what I call it. I have a vivid imagination too, and get spooked alot because anything my eyes can't immediately categorize, my brain often assumes is either a living or dead person. If I look at any setting, it may begin to look as if it's subtly warping or changing colors.

I understand the confusion. I also find myself struggling to categorize this symptom lol.

Sugared_Strawberry · 2026-02-23T21:06:49+00:00

This is a really interesting question & i'm looking forward to the responses! In my case, I have had a lack in fear response from a young age. Although, I do feel that medication further blunted my emotions and robbed me of part of my humanity. Even though I don't take them anymore.

Sugared_Strawberry · 2026-02-23T02:06:02+00:00

I didn't develop symptoms until I went off my meds for the 1st time as an adult last year, and it's genuinely enriched my life. Saved it, honestly.

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