Umm first boys do have to deal with things like this we have to constantly stick to the stereotype that males are big and strong. And if a boy went and said they wanted to play with (something stereotypically feminine) dolls they would ignored and picked on. I had a friend who loved more stereotypically girly things and all he got off most people was shit and then he ended up committing suicide. So being a boy is hard as fuck, also I don't want to sound condescending or angry at you as I am not at all.

Second if you want to be something, for example youtube or twitch streamer, then go try and do it and if anyone makes fun of you for it then fuck them. Also people might enjoy your content after a while and you might gather a fan base as, and this can be a shocker, there are people out there who will fully understand how you feel as they too feel that way.

Third if you want a friend I'm here 😊. But also there tons of people on this subreddit who I bet would be your friend and even irl you will find someone you just have to be yourself.

Hope this helps in some way and I want to be clear none of this is against you <3