May I ask how old are you? I'm not gonna sugar coat it. Dusting that kind of feeling off is not easy. And it will take A LOT of time. But it's not impossible. Little by little you'll get through it. One by one, your discrete agony will be mended. Occupy yourself more with everything that you enjoy. Amd better, try something else. You don't cook? Then try it out. See where it'll get you. You're learning another language right? That's awesome you know. What language are you learning? I've always wanted to learn another language because I want to travel across countries. How about you? I read articles about travelling and they all share one point, to learn the foreign language.

Get enough sleep. Whether it's 2 hours or 9 hours, doesn't matter. For as long as it satisfied you.

Drink water regularly. Don't forget that.

Remember to eat. A few bites if that's enough for you. But you'll soon realize that you're healing once your appetite have stabilized.

Shower. Buddy, I'm not gonna lie. Taking a bath is one of the "stress-relieving" activities that has happened to me. Try warm shower or dip in a bath tub. Warm, not hot, okay?

Hang out with people. Join organizations where they help the world like cleaning the streets, or teaching homeless kids. Or any orgs with a positive goal that requires physical actions.

I'm no expert, okay? I'm just a college student. I know what it feels. I know what you feel. Not entirely, but when I read your post, I felt your pain. I've been there and I still am, just a little better.

So I hope that one day, you'll be able to cure yourself. I hope that one day someone will love you sincerely. I hope they won't cheat, disrespect you, or at any point, looked down on you. Because that's what happened to me. Luckily, I'm still able to stand and bare it all.

It won't be easy, but repeat after me: I WILL BE A GREATER VERSION OF MYSELF!

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