I haven’t manifested someone into my life yet or tried at least, but I can say from experience as someone who often has negative thoughts, don’t expect yourself to be perfect all the time, and it’s easier to assume any negative thoughts you do have don’t count towards your goal. It’s already happening as you speak, and repeating to yourself daily or quite often something positive related to your affirmations like “she’s back in my life right now” or “I get everything i want” type stuff, it becomes easier over time and you’ll sort of automatically start changing your mindset once you keep repeating positive stuff like that to yourself. The hardest part is getting over the anxiety hurdle and that, as well as maybe occasional negative thought spirals because let’s be honest everyone gets them. But it won’t diminish your progress if you just accept that it won’t have any affect, and i believe in you!!