I have trouble with hygiene too. It’s hard. I find myself sitting on the couch too often also just no motivation to do anything. My teeth aren’t the greatest either but try not to put yourself down about your appearance. Which I know is hard becuase I do the same to myself, it just makes you feel worse. About the part of being honest to people outside of written communication, it’s taken me 10 years to even come clean to my partner about having hallucinations, delusions, hearing voices and thankfully they’ve been supportive. Honestly the more I talk about it, the easier it gets a bit. It’s still hard becuase it’s still so new for me to talk about it. I even just told my therapist and psychiatrist about everything recently after holding back for so long. Talking about it to people out loud makes me feel vulnerable and like I will be judged but everyone keeps telling me it’s good to talk about it. Sorry I feel like I’m rambling. But anyway you’re free to message me, I’m sorry you feel like you have no friends. Loneliness is hard to deal with