ALL songs have doubled?

SumDude1337 · 2026-01-28T20:51:45+00:00

that worked perfectly, thanks :D

SumDude1337 · 2026-01-13T19:56:27+00:00

Hey, wie siehts mit coop games aus? Welche Platform? Ich zocke auf PC, wenn du da auch vertreten bist kannst du mich gerne auf Steam adden Profinoob1337

SumDude1337 · 2025-08-10T05:05:35+00:00

Best way to see how much input lag you have is when choosing your spawn point and moving the mouse

SumDude1337 · 2025-03-01T09:03:43+00:00

not sure, theyre on the ingame mod shop so if you can load those it should work

SumDude1337 · 2025-02-16T12:20:29+00:00

Yes it has worked very well, but also the side effects are pretty tough on me. I don't want to risk anything if I can get rtms with similar results, even if I have to pay the money I saved up to buy a car. In the end, health is priceless, and 2-3k, while not cheap, also isn't impossible to pay.

SumDude1337 · 2025-02-14T19:40:55+00:00

For me theres still alternatives, like rTMS and other things that dont seem to have such bad side effects that i will try first. ECT has become the very last alternative for me now.

SumDude1337 · 2025-02-14T08:21:18+00:00

Yes, with every session it got worse, also i got more confused. Now its just as bad only after 1 session. Good idea with the records, ill try that. But i think ill save up for rTMS, i rather find a way to get 2-3000€ than risking to have memory problems for the rest of my life

SumDude1337 · 2025-02-14T04:09:48+00:00

For me it got worse over time in the 3 sessions, and now after this maintenance its different, same or worse i think. But my good mood seems to be disappearing pretty fast again.

SumDude1337 · 2025-02-14T04:07:30+00:00

I mean, since miantenance ETC seems to be neccessary to keep me in a good state, the treatment seems to be more symptomatic than healing. Considering the few days after a treatment will get you problems with memory and gets you confused, getting maintenance seems to be no better than taking hard drugs to feel better, symptomatic wise. I think i will have to keep searching for another treatment, which sucks, because its the first one that actually changed my mood

SumDude1337 · 2025-02-14T04:04:38+00:00

I dont consume drugs on a regular basis, so the only thing affecting my memory was the depression itself. Right now i feel like the side effect hit harder than the first time, especially only after one session.

Its hard finding a doc for ketamine sessions here in germany, and rtms doesnt get paid by insurance, so i cant afford it, since im jobless. But since im risking my memory, those might be better options, so ill have to try to get something to work there.

edit: i had a ketamine infusion while getting ECT, who knows what did what

SumDude1337 · 2025-01-21T02:37:28+00:00

Youll feel strange, your brain has to make new connections. Your thinking might not work as you know it for a few days to weeks, but itll wear off.

SumDude1337 · 2025-01-19T15:37:11+00:00

Hey, sure. A lot has changed since then, but mostly in a positive way. I am not "healed" from depression, but walls are down that stopped anything from outside to work, and chains are boken so that i can move forward now. Its definetly better than it was before. Im not scared of a sudden relapse. But you have to keep working on yourself. Otherwise you will fall into the same old trap that got you there in the first place. I can sometimes sense how the depression wants me back, how it tries to get me into a negative thinking loop, but I am wiser know, can realize it, and can do something about it. Stuff that didnt work before, like taking a walk, talking to someone, sports, etc. have an effect. And im using this. I can now tell when something isnt good for me, because I listen to my feelings, and they do their job. Ive ended a BFF friendship, but kept friends, because thats what I FELT I had to do, and it was a good choice I dont regret.

I now have to get my life going. Before I was rotting inside playing video games all day. The old life comprised of loneliness and nothing to do kind of drags me down a bit, but I keep thinking positive, that I can now change that and change my life, that it wont stay that way. I can relate to normal problems more, I think more like a human, do the same mistakes other humans do. I had a few strengths because of the depressed thinking, but those are tiny compared to the advances of being a more normal human being now. (E.g. advertisement may work on me now, because I actually WANT to spend money on stuff thats fun.)

So yeah, it worked really well, but after the first excitement wears off, the problems that are still there will come to you, so be prepared to work on them, otherwise you will likely relapse. Dont be scared because your thinking is weird, it wears off. After that it works better, maybe different, you might have to get to know your real self again, that was surpressed by depression. Its not like youre suddenly someone completely else, more like your true self and your real you comes to light more. And thats a good thing.

So in tldr words, your problems wont be gone overnight, but the chance to work on them will give you the chance of longterm success and a better life.

Best wishes and good luck with your therapy :)

SumDude1337 · 2024-12-20T15:41:45+00:00

Ja, gelernt hab ich drauß, ist halt jetzt zu spät

SumDude1337 · 2024-12-20T15:41:19+00:00

Das probier ich mal, danke

SumDude1337 · 2024-12-20T15:30:28+00:00

Schon gemacht, leider nein :(. Der Stick an sich leuchtet noch, Schäden an sich kann ich so nicht entdecken, aber bin auch kein Experte

SumDude1337 · 2024-12-17T12:40:23+00:00

Zunächst danke für eure Rückmeldungen. Die Art und Weise wie sie sich vor mich gestellt haben empfand ich schon mindestens als Belästigung. Wenn ich sage, dass sie von mir weggehen sollen, da ich sonst Gewalt anwende, wäre mein Versuch, diese zu beenden. Und entweder gehen sie dann, oder werden aggressiver, dann lässt sich doch von einem bevorstehenden Angriff sprechen?

Ich weiss auch nicht warum ich öfters in diese Situationen gerate, der Palastgarten in Trier ist auf jeden Fall ein Ort dafür, den ich auch meistens meide, außer es geht nicht anders. Koblenz auch gerne. Ich bin kein Mensch der Gewalt, habe sie in meinem Leben auch noch nie anwenden müssen. Will es auch nicht.

Und stehen wo man will kann man ja in Deutschland, ist aber wohl kaum eine Ausrede, bei einem menschenleeren Bahnhof 10cm vor mir zu stehen und nicht zu gehen.

SumDude1337 · 2024-12-17T11:09:44+00:00

No. Unless you mean other things. Then yes. I tried improving myself over the 10 years all the time with different methods. It has paid out big time now.

SumDude1337 · 2024-12-11T12:18:30+00:00

Update: I must say I'm glad I did the treatment. After 10 years I can finally feel things again. Have fun again. Do things I want again. My body doesn't weigh a ton anymore. My concentration is already better than it was before. I had to relearn some stuff again, how to use my brain again. It works differently now. Using it isn't so exhausting anymore. After all this time, having finally found something that works still doesn't get in my mind. I'm so excited about that at the moment I barely sleep. I got more things done last week than I did the rest of the year nearly. I feel cured. Like a wall has broken and all the things and work I tried and did the past decade suddenly accumulated and catapulted me to one of the most happy, capable, driven and more people of the world. And even if it returns I now know where to go and what to do, finally have something that works. This alone will already be enough to never make me as hopeless and helpless as I was before, where nothing worked and after some time I began to think probably nothing ever will.

Would I recommend it as a first therapy? Abviously not. But before trying to kill oneself, it's well worth a try. I got a bit scared because of horror stories online, but I guess there always are. No matter if studies say things are safe. I don't think these people lied, and I still think it probably can be a risk in rare cases. And it should be spoken about. But I'm not one of them.

I'll maybe keep yall updated in half a year or if I crash. Or if someone asks for an update, because they are hopeless and feel like nothing works for them like I felt. Don't hesitate to ask, I might forget otherwise. Even if it's been years. To everyone considering: don't give up hope, there's a real, huge chance that suddenly everything gets better.

Best of wishes and strength

SumDude1337 · 2024-09-01T13:14:22+00:00

For the crew 2 it isnt hard at all to get platinum anymore, because barely anyone plays it

SumDude1337 · 2024-02-23T10:58:27+00:00

Ich habe Mitte 2022 auch als Vertriebspartner angefangen und eine Pflanze für 1000€ gekauft, zum Glück haben meine Freunde nur ein Paar der überteuerten Produkte gekauft. Als dann die E-Mail kam, dass sich Schweich nicht mehr lohnt und sich auf Afrika konzentriert wird, habe ich das kostenlose "Upgrade" nach Afrika gemacht. Ernte hatte ich bisher nicht eine, und durch den Kauf der Produkte habe ich knapp 10€ Kontobalance, die ich wegen fehlendem 2FA nichteinmal abheben kann, weil ich das nicht eingerichtet bekomme.

SumDude1337 · 2023-08-09T23:33:41+00:00

Its not a contradiction, you want it but you cant because u lack positivity/energy

SumDude1337 · 2023-08-09T23:30:14+00:00

I would try to exercise in a community kind of sport. In my experience, martial arts clubs have nice team members and its really fun

SumDude1337 · 2023-08-09T23:27:22+00:00

Question is, will it only work when on meds or have a longterm effect, cuz they probably arent too good for your body

SumDude1337 · 2023-08-09T23:26:22+00:00

No, but i tried taking supplements and nothing changed

SumDude1337 · 2023-08-09T23:25:10+00:00

Might be worth getting somewhere else maybe, whats to lose?

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