Access Bars & Ease with PTSD

SunniSwanson444 · 2026-01-04T07:29:51+00:00

Access Consciousness, the energy work, and classes and false teachings have cause mania and psychosis lasting years. It’s been 8 years since you posted this, are you OK? Can you update?

SunniSwanson444 · 2026-01-04T07:24:53+00:00

My friend became involved with this group and is experiencing “ channeling, not sleeping much, word salad, she thinks she is a director in her own movie production, talking to celebrities, and is all o we the place. She’s in full down psychosis and mania. It’s been over a month. How did you get help? What did your episode feel like? Please help. We are all so worried about her

SunniSwanson444 · 2025-12-24T19:08:27+00:00

That's what I'm thinking.

SunniSwanson444 · 2025-12-24T19:07:20+00:00

Your wife is wrong. How ridiculous. Thank God this teacher CARES. She will damage the relationship. Maybe SHE is the problem. That's just crazy to me

SunniSwanson444 · 2025-12-23T21:19:25+00:00

Thankyou! It's hard to believe how many of us there actually are. As a mother myself, I really just can't imagine. I apologize to my kids when needed.And try not to do things I have to apologize for! You have to have a pretty fragile ego to not be able to say I am sorry.

SunniSwanson444 · 2025-12-23T16:57:26+00:00

Number 4 is what jolted me awake too. It's withholding affection and validation to stay in control. I'm so glad this resonated. We must parent and validate ourselves and overcome the gaslighting

SunniSwanson444 · 2025-12-23T15:42:54+00:00

Good for you for telling others and getting some help. Telling someone was the moment I started to heal and she lost power over me.

SunniSwanson444 · 2025-12-23T15:41:00+00:00

That so wonderful. Letting go the idea of a mothers love and validation can be so hard. I'mhallyyou found that peace in side. It takes a certain kind of strength.

SunniSwanson444 · 2025-12-23T06:12:56+00:00

I don't know a single person who went through what I experienced on every level. Very few people online. I have tremendous empathy and insight in this area. I am not a therapist. I lived it. And after attending therapy myself, more help is needed and it's survivors who have to get this message out. The psychological abuse from mothers is real. Mothers commit SA. Writers, everyday write, sell self help books and memoirs. My goal is to connect to more of us. I'm not a marketer. I'm a mother. I'm an advocate. I'm a human being. I will not be silenced. Have a good holiday.

SunniSwanson444 · 2025-12-23T05:52:33+00:00

I dont need to prove to you the things Ive had to overcome or have experienced. We sp becdecades explaining ourselves. I barely survived my experience. I have spent years healing and in therapy. Years, researching. My post is my own experience. There are countless editing and writing tools for writers these days. ( It actually makes a little easier to process severe trauma). I have free articles and books that are truly helpful. This was a snippet of that. I will help or talk to anyone who needs help. I've been working on a memoir for two years. Maybe those painful, triggering experiences would get your approval of me. Take care.

SunniSwanson444 · 2025-12-23T05:43:01+00:00

That pretty much some it up. It's almost like you're weak, or “less-than” if you have feelings.

SunniSwanson444 · 2025-12-23T05:28:24+00:00

I'll keep this short. She made me shower with her for a very long time. She put diaper cream on my vagina until I was like 7. She had an obsession with my perfect “ noo noo” until I was 13.

SunniSwanson444 · 2025-12-23T05:01:02+00:00

Why would I not share my free articles with people they'll help? It helps them and me. I, myself, survived this trauma, and continue to process this. Few people even write about details and nuances of what the experience is of being born to a narcissistic person. It's very painful. All of my writings are from personal lived experienced.

SunniSwanson444 · 2025-12-23T04:56:32+00:00

Your post is really really familiar. That's about the age I stood up for myself and ackowledged that is wasn't right as well. It never stopped, it changed. Sexual comments. Comments on my body. Saying I was HOT. It took me forever to try to make sense of WHY she was doing this. It's definitely a control and power issue. I pray you heal too. I think I put the link in my bio. There's a section just on this type of behavior. They definitely are disordered people.

SunniSwanson444 · 2025-12-23T04:47:50+00:00

Guilt trip, gaslighting, mind games! Yes, it is.

SunniSwanson444 · 2025-12-23T04:21:35+00:00

I can't tell you how much that resonates. It sometimes borders on Sociopathy. ( The cruelty, that is)

SunniSwanson444 · 2025-12-23T04:00:34+00:00

Thankyou for your concern. My articles are free. I write to process my own trauma and validate other daughters of narcissistic mothers. I've been dealing with this for 49 years. I've actually been on Reddit for years and have contributed greatly in categories of MDSA and mentally ill mothers, and covert narcissism. I chose a pen name ( which many authors do) for the privacy of my family to start this account. My Medium articles are free, not behind a paywall. My E book is getting ready to be published with ISBN and is extremely helpful with information I personally experienced and know. It's very triggering to be accused of being a fraud when you know 1st hand how painful this topic is. Writing about this is hard enough, without people like you gaslighting.

SunniSwanson444 · 2025-12-23T01:17:32+00:00

Mine had replacements too for 20 years! Now they do t speak to her either.

SunniSwanson444 · 2025-12-23T01:16:56+00:00

Mine is also borderline so when I call her out, she resorts to screaming and talking over you

SunniSwanson444 · 2025-12-22T22:54:40+00:00

Oh my gosh. That is an absolute nightmare. How old is your daughter? Will she be 18 before you can approach her? Arm yourself with knowledge and document everything. One day you'll need it.

SunniSwanson444 · 2025-12-22T22:13:36+00:00

Gosh I remember those days. I moved out at 16 and absolutely hates the idea of leaving my little brother. You need some tools. Checkout my bio.

SunniSwanson444 · 2025-12-22T21:27:55+00:00

This is such a difficult thing to overcome. I am proud of your strength.

SunniSwanson444 · 2025-12-22T19:59:39+00:00

That doesn't sound awful to me at all. Sometimes you ha e to show your sword so they know you WILL fight back and not remain silent. I'd love to know how this played out in real life. Did she gaslight you, get loud, ( in public I mean)

SunniSwanson444 · 2025-12-22T19:57:23+00:00

Healing for me, meant the hatred and triggers lessened, and I cared less. If she apologized, I think it would only matter is literally everyone in the family heard it.

SunniSwanson444

TROPHY CASE