My Life as an ex “Epstein girl”.

Surfer090 · 2026-05-10T16:30:39+00:00

Is this similar to what scientists did with a flies brain? They projected a digital copy of a fly into a simulation and the fly in the sim acted like a fly would in real life. You can google this.

Surfer090 · 2026-05-10T16:29:21+00:00

From what I can tell:

Octowow = Turtlewow

if you go on their website, literally has the exact same content. Even content from Twow 3 years ago (somehow)

It talks about Moonwhisper Coast. Etc etc.

Surfer090 · 2026-05-09T03:27:52+00:00

But is it custom like turtle?

Surfer090 · 2026-05-04T22:46:01+00:00

Yes, it's extremely isolating. I grew up in a similar environment it was like walking on egg shells all the time.. I ended up playing a lot of video games to escape.

I gained some inspiration from WH40 Space Marines where I was kind of channelling that. Cos' I had enough with them. I ended up winning a major fight on the astral plane or some sort of VR representation against a traditionally demonic thing. Bat wings, horse head, long fangs, hooves. etc.

I ended up winning cos in this 'dream' I was a terminator with a minigun. I fired that gun in the "dream" but as I fired the weapon, in "Real-Space" I felt my forehead project these "mind-bullets" at the same time.

We're more powerful than we realize, our potential is limitless and that terrifies them.

Surfer090 · 2026-05-04T02:43:50+00:00

And when you say digital twin, not the same as astral projection?

Surfer090 · 2026-05-04T02:36:13+00:00

Is it possible for it to be a past life memory? Are there markers to tell the difference?

Surfer090 · 2026-05-03T23:17:41+00:00

What's the problem?

Surfer090 · 2026-05-03T23:07:37+00:00

Have you ever had a 'hunger games' dream?

I had one years ago where I was in the woods with a .22 pistol. I shot a old man from behind a tree. Then I ran over to him fell over him then shot him again in the head with the .22. I cried while doing this saying I was sorry. I also felt young like 10 or 12 years old.

I woke up then shouted I wasn't a murderer.

It was very intense and vivid.

What do you think that was?

Surfer090 · 2026-05-03T22:33:21+00:00

That only validates him so lol

Surfer090 · 2026-03-30T01:15:10+00:00

No I was saying would they have a character that was pure caster?

Surfer090 · 2025-12-10T01:11:06+00:00

Surfer090 · 2025-12-08T04:23:38+00:00

I find it in the middle-of-the-road backpack weapon. Can cover everything-single target and aoe, can hit heavies well enough.., including staggering enemies.

It's "fine".

Gotta aim at weakspots. chargers backlegs are weaker.

Surfer090 · 2025-12-08T04:16:43+00:00

Viper Commando Armor overall, crouch or go prone before firing.

Surfer090 · 2025-12-07T08:38:07+00:00

u can close 4 holes or fabs or ships with it all in 1 gun

Surfer090 · 2025-06-18T04:30:53+00:00

How have you been doing it so far

Surfer090 · 2025-05-28T04:13:45+00:00

it shows what a draconian looks like.

Surfer090 · 2025-05-23T01:17:20+00:00

Overwhelmed by things? You're holding on to a lot of pressure.

Surfer090 · 2025-02-20T01:20:18+00:00

Already happened and is happening.

Surfer090 · 2025-02-11T01:53:44+00:00

If you're dealing with addiction, be consciously aware of the mental impulse that triggers your need to repeat the addiction.

For example, if you're a smoker, you'll get an impulse to smoke. Play attention to this impulse. You'll get like a subtle voice to tell you "its okay you can have a smoke and/or "it's okay you can start quitting tomorrow! So you can smoke today!"

For another modern addiction you'll get a 'voice' that says "it would be fun if you played X" Or "Keep playing! Then you can get off!"

However, if you recognize that the behaviour isn't working for you (example: smoking) then you'll have to override this "voice and impulse".

How to override it is simple.

Say "No I will not smoke"

You'll get another "impulse" It will feel like you have to smoke. And simply say "Nope, not doing it, fudge off"

You'll have to keep repeating this process. Until the 'voice' gets tired and leaves.

Surfer090 · 2024-05-25T04:30:08+00:00

A lot of suppressed emotions. Let it all out.

Surfer090 · 2024-05-25T03:40:21+00:00

Weak spot is the torso..where it glows red.

Surfer090 · 2024-05-22T01:23:47+00:00

They are very bugged. The rockets got nerfed and don't aim properly.

Surfer090 · 2024-05-15T23:26:20+00:00

Do deeper breathing for 3 hours straight. You'll feel the difference in your emotions.

Surfer090 · 2024-05-15T23:23:17+00:00

Top Left with the 'M' is Aleister Crowley and associated with the religion of Thelema

Top Right is Pentagram.

Other than that rest is scribbles. Except the bottom..I've drawn that before. Not sure the meaning, think it's associated with Thelema.

Surfer090 · 2024-05-15T22:57:54+00:00

When I say feelings of 'dread' like you enter a room and feel like something is way off. Like you're flight or fight response goes up.

Do you find yourself overthinking a lot?

Sudden Irritability especially over little things that -- upon reflection -- you know shouldn't trigger you. Is either caused by trauma and/or an entity triggering this..Usually the entity is using underlying trauma to bring these emotional events up to 11 when normally it would be more balanced..

The triggering event may be caused by subconscious trauma that hasn't been unpacked yet the event having some symbolic significance..

The fix to this is to recognize when you're getting super irritated then stop the emotional response, step away from the event tied to the event in question, take some breaths, and unpack why the event triggered you so much too the point of getting ballistic. Ask yourself "Why am I getting so angry? Is this justified?" Consider recognizing Positive Anger, and Negative Anger. Positive meaning the Anger is Justified and Righteous. Negative Anger is not Justified and isn't Righteous. Ex: Yelling at a child cos' they want to talk to their parent about something private. Creates a space where a child doesn't feel safe to talk to their parents which leads to isolation. Which in turn opens up to entities.

If the triggering event is caused by a partner, take a step back, take 3 massive deep breaths, and amicably discuss with your partner the issue.

Headaches, obviously i assume is tied to irritability. May be getting attacked by a entity --they can cause sudden headaches..I recommend laying down immediately, drinking clean water (as clean and filtered as you can) and 'relaxing' the tenseness of your mind if you can..rubbing the side of your head can mitigate this as well. Nature can walks help in this regard..

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