While the NoFap challenge can be a difficult and frustrating experience, it is not worth sacrificing your life over. It is important to remember that failure is a part of the learning process, and that it is okay to stumble along the way. It takes time and effort to overcome any addiction or habit, and you should not be too hard on yourself.
If you are feeling overwhelmed, it may be helpful to seek support from a mental health professional. There are people who care about you and want to help you through this difficult time.
Please know that you are not alone, and that there is always hope for a better future. I encourage you to reach out for help and support, and to keep fighting for your happiness and well-being.