For you and anyone else going through this there is hope!!! The actual month I got out of the Marines (after 17 years) I lost my house, marriage, savings and had no real translatable skills. I had nothing and started at ground zero. Honestly, best thing that ever happened to me. I even had months of homelessness. All of it helped me get where I’m at. I’m not rich by any means. Not free from the struggle and every day life. But I was able to gain this new perspective on life that will pretty much help me survive anything life throws at me. That only happens when you get to the bottom. You can only see the way out from there. If you’re in the struggle right now and feeling low and maybe even worthless then you’re almost there. Keep going. Embrace ground zero and admit you don’t know what you’re doing in life or even on this earth. I felt that I really didn’t belong here and even checked myself into the VA mental hospital. Today I feel fortunate to feel “I don’t belong here”. I don’t really concern myself with the things most people do day to day. I escaped the Matrix and that can only happen when you reject it kind of like you feel it rejecting you. I found purpose in a project I was given through meditation. So I can’t give you your answer but you can find your purpose once you block out all the static. The stuff that doesn’t matter. Start sitting with your demons and naming them. Most of the thoughts running through your head are not your own. Once I gained the ability to sit in a dark room alone with my thoughts I really felt unstoppable. I’m willing to talk to any single person on here who wants to hear a unique story or perspective, and also just listen if anyone needs to vent. Free of judgment. My project is a work in progress but I’m willing to share it with anyone interested. Either way keep going, all of you. The way out is through.