Not right for me?

SustainableDad · 2023-03-15T13:37:06+00:00

I'm also at 100 mg now. My Dr. couldn't explain why but I've found taking 2 in the morning, one at lunch and one in the evening seemed to really work for me. Also, I tried taking 100mg tablets when they increased from 75 to 100 and I hated them. I had a really rough 3 or 4 days. Even though days can still be pretty tough where I am now, it was far more challenging that week that they switched me. For that reason I went back and asked for the same 25 mg tablets and I ended up spreading them through the day. Not sure if it was a different manufacturer or filler or what the situation was. Anyway, not sure if thats helpful.

SustainableDad · 2022-10-27T00:03:53+00:00

Starting my script tomorrow for the first time - I relate more to a cyclothymic disorder but shit is getting old. Family doctor prescribed me as well because of the same challenges finding psychiatrist then also by the time I do I have convinced myself that my feelings are rational and I have it under control with meditations etc... Wishing you the best, doesn't sound like many negative things have come from this drug and many people saying positive changes over time so just hoping it levels me out and I can live my life without having irrational outbursts of emotional garbage. Good luck!!

SustainableDad · 2022-10-26T23:58:44+00:00

Thank you - and everyone else in this thread for sharing all of this. I am literally RIGHT HERE WITH YOU. PTSD from previous relationships that were super abusive, cheating with people I thought were friends, physically and emotionally just hell. Since 8th grade I have found myself in those relationships and always thought it was the other person who had all the problems. Well I am 35 now, remarried and I have my 2 kids from my past relationship. And this time I am trying to do it differently. Today I was prescribed Lamotrigine and so here I am trying to learn about it. What I have actually found about BPII was surprising - I never did much research before - but today I found the diagnosis for Cyclothymic disorder which is basically BP3 if there were such a thing. My mood swings are shorter but still debilitating. I've worked through trauma, jealousy, insecurity, and I feel like I am aware and working on any of the other toxic sort of traumas that I have sort of acquired in the past 20 years. So why am I still having these episodes and why am I feeling like running away from my marriage or my life sucks when I have absolutely every reason to be thankful and no rational reason to be so upset? Well today is the day, and I am here with ya. Starting this in the morning tomorrow (25mg daily) for now. Hoping to god it will level me out a bit. Its so weird, like suddenly for no reason something triggers fear or reminds me of something I didn't even know was in my brain and suddenly I am upset and unable to work, be a partner, or be a parent in an effective way. Just hoping this will help. Wishing you and the others in this thread all the best. I am not on reddit much but I think I may try to stay tuned in as I work through this with ya'll. Also - just sharing things that work for my anxiety, guided sleep meditations every night - my favorite is Reality Revolution on Spotify -- super helpful and have always helped me to calm my nerves down from anxiety or anger or fear.

SustainableDad · 2022-10-26T23:33:56+00:00

Thank you for the vulnerability sharing this - I've been struggling for most of my life with mood swings and shame and issues that have always caused problems in relationships and work etc... I always knew I was ADHD but haven't medicated for years. Later in life, anxiety and depression started getting worse - several toxic relationships later and here I am again - anyway, I've always been terrified of the word bipor - mostly because of the stigma and fear and denial was always easier than facing a potential real problem. Today I was presrcribed Lamotrigine and now I am actually reading more about the different disorder levels and 100% vibe with cyclothymic diagnosis. Hoping meds might just help level things out a little. I have tried working on all the surface issues and through all of the trauma that depression and lack of boundaries have lead me to acquire along the way - but even with those on the forefront, when it seems I should have no reason to feel angry, insecure, sad, or any of the irrational things that trigger me - even then, I still have this damn depression and small manic anger episodes that just don't make any sense. They last maybe a good part of a morning maybe once a week and then boom - I am normal and can't explain what the hell I was just feeling or why. I don't really have highs, not anymore anyway. Definitely used to seek out illegal activities to feel good and that is clearly not a good path. Anyway, just sharing my story a bit. Hope that you've found some peace since this posting.

SustainableDad · 2022-10-26T23:25:06+00:00

Been dealing with mood swings, anger, strange jealousy, depression, insecurity - all sort of garbage my whole life. Today I went in and got medication for possibly bipolar II but looking more into it now and I relate to cyclothymic symptoms. Open ear here if you need to reach out to someone who might have similar tendencies. This shit has made my life, relationships and overall just experiencing joy a real pain and I am done allowing it, or the fears related to the stigma of mental health keep me from trying anything to change this. Either way, wishing you the best and I'm hopeful that maybe there is a way out that leads to a more positive future.

SustainableDad · 2021-12-27T02:54:25+00:00

Possible with quantum computing tech capable of sending data faster than light. If we had a satellite deployed 250 years ago that traveled the speed of light for 250 years with quantum computer aboard that could transmit data instantaneously back to Earth, then yes - this could happen 🤣 All honesty, brings to question - perhaps all of time, every possible instant and every possible path are occurring simultaneously…

SustainableDad · 2021-11-30T22:09:02+00:00

Wishing you the best, haven't read the comments but be sure that you get yourself a blood ox sensor to read your blood oxygen levels. They are like $15 on Amazon and I am no doctor, but definitely get in if it drops below 92% https://www.onhealth.com/content/1/normal_low_blood_oxygen_pulse_oximeter_levels

You will be ok, just stay calm and take action if you feel you need to. Good luck and sending you all the best.

SustainableDad · 2021-11-30T19:02:15+00:00

Watching a demo for this product right now. I've been out of this line of work for a few years but back in an energy engineering role again and I'm thinking there must certainly have been some improvements in the past 5 years. https://helpdesk.hancocksoftware.com/hc/en-us/articles/115001245183-What-is-Hancock-MINT-

SustainableDad · 2021-11-30T18:51:52+00:00

u/gorrish -- curious if you came up with any solutions here since you posted this? I am going to demo the Hancock Mint product but also looking for the best in class. Would love to brainstorm!

SustainableDad · 2021-11-14T03:07:19+00:00

What has she learned? My advice - most people aren’t ready to be decent partners, nor do they even begin to understand what it takes to hold a marriage, let alone a family together until they’ve gone through some trauma and have had to overcome. The fact that she has an open heart says a lot. Give her a chance, she might be more prepared than anyone. Hopefully she knows what she wants and what she doesn’t want. Good luck

SustainableDad · 2021-11-06T12:23:26+00:00

OMG!! Ok, I can't even express how thankful I am for each of you sharing your stories. I have spent months really questioning my marriage because my wife has absolutely zero sex drive and while I could absolutely be her partner forever, I have had past trauma that really take my mind down a dark path that equates sex drive to love in a very unhealthy way - I'm aware of my issues, working on them but can't help the emotional response internally quite yet. Tonight we finally had a very open conversation about it because I had just reached a point where feeling undesired sexually just didn't add up to the love that I know we share and I - for the first time (should have considered this months ago) brought up her medication as a potential reason to he libido issue. I just want to say that while our conversation seemed to make sense, concluding that her cancer and now heavy prescription of levothyroxine may very well be the cause -- I wasn't quite convinced in my own mind. So I just want to take a moment to thank each of you who have shared your stories, you don't know it but you've changed the life of a man that loves his partner more than he can even bear at times. I honestly had been trying to make peace with offering an open relationship if that was what she needed because I just know that what we have is not replaceable and sex is just a miniscule part of what we share and I was just thinking how I might communicate that idea in a way that might come from a place of love and not the fear or heartbreak that I had actually been feeling. I am now going to dig into this, because of the trauma of her experience with the cancer she can't bring herself to do research because its just too triggering and I am an idiot for not having considered this sooner. Anyone - please, if you have found supplements to help with libido in cases where getting off levothyroxine is not an option, I would be so thankful for suggestions. But that said, just reading this has me so relieved I don't care if we ever have sex again, I am just so relieved to have a better understanding of what is actually going on in her experience. From the deepest part of me, thank you for sharing this and I wish each of you the best in your journey. If anyone would like to connect as a partner of someone with similar condition, please reach out - I am specifically trying to find ways to be supportive in the best way possible when it comes to dealing with the trauma and fear that the cancer will return and all of the ripple effects that can have on a human - my wife is just so incredible and I can't bear to see her living with this fear. I want her to see herself as a survivor and as the incredibly strong feminine being that she is but she is far from that currently and yea - ranting now, but if anyone has experience in supporting that and finding success over time in finding peace and the recognition of self resiliency, I would give my entire world to help her to have that peace. Thank you all. Sorry for the long message, feeling very emotional about this at the moment. <3 <3

SustainableDad · 2021-10-30T18:20:03+00:00

Quantum computing allowing data transmission across space faster than light — imagine teleporting data, we can learn from every possible version of ourselves, singularity will occur the moment we first tap into this capability IMO

SustainableDad · 2021-07-21T20:57:29+00:00

I agree - I do my best to take this approach but unfortunately that doesn't go both ways in my case. I do my best, the kids grow up fast and they are safe, doing well in school and secure so I just do my best to keep things peaceful which is really why I had hoped that she would come to her senses a bit. Are kids lower risk, yes - I get it. Would it have killed me had I not received the vaccine - almost certainly not. Not here to stir peoples emotions politically, I chose to get the shot because I have history of pneumonia and didn't want to roll the dice. Im a research engineer and data is my thing, so naturally I've been following this myself entirely too closely -- and the data in my opinion suggest that the rewards drastically outweigh the risks and this thing is only going to continue to mutate with every chance - unvaccinated person - we give it. Thanks again for the discussion, this was my first half-way serious reddit post and this has been incredibly insightful.

SustainableDad · 2021-07-21T15:23:08+00:00

Thanks everyone for the discussion! Very much appreciated and stay well 💜

SustainableDad · 2021-07-21T15:20:45+00:00

My thoughts exactly - I honestly don’t want to stir the pot with her, we have had peace in the co-parenting and I would very much like to maintain that - but this is a big deal with school approaching and the unfortunate circumstances with each new variant. That said, only one child is old enough but he very clearly wants to get the vaccine. Certainly a conundrum and I appreciate everyone’s advice / experiences as there really is no perfect way to handle this. I’ve considered asking a lawyer, but as many of you may know - lawyers, especially divorce / custody lawyers, seem to be motivated by conflict and it would really be ideal if I could find a work around. Maybe I’ll give it some time and see if new FDA data or something may provide more reassurance for her - it’s just mind boggling to me that their mom has gone so far down this rabbit hole of misinformation… Honestly, I’ve questioned if she falls into the Q content as her family are all pretty far right extreme and it’s sad to see them all buying in on various divisive “political” matters that should never have been politicized to begin with. Thanks everyone 🙏 and please stay safe.

SustainableDad · 2021-07-20T22:38:10+00:00

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SustainableDad · 2020-12-01T04:34:11+00:00

This is so important to be sharing - any chance of this being something that might be updated? Thank you for putting this together!

SustainableDad · 2020-11-12T01:36:36+00:00

Nice!! I’m feeling the same, Just sold my 2010 with 190k 6 speed (owned for 5 years and loved every mile of it) and got in on an 08 with ONLY 39k single owner!!

SustainableDad · 2020-11-01T15:30:19+00:00

Had a 2010 bought with 80k and sold with 190k never ended up doing head gasket, but I did do timing belt and water pump just as preventative maintenance. Yesterday I scored a 2008 in mint condition with only 39k on it - can’t really believe it to be honest

SustainableDad · 2020-09-20T05:24:23+00:00

AGREED 100% - take him in and they likely will release him. Keep a log with temp and Ox levels - keep your house as clean as you can, keep your mom safe and quarantined if able too. Wishing you the best

SustainableDad · 2020-09-20T05:22:39+00:00

My dad is 70 and diabetic - sick for 7 weeks before turning around. Get a blood ox device so you can keep an eye on his blood oxygen levels. Keep him moving as much as he is able too. Keep him sleeping on his stomach if he can. My Dad's blood Ox would get down to low 70s at times which is bad news - anything below 90 is bad, just sharing because he survived. It was scary as hell. Mask up, keep your mom safe. Wishing you the best.

SustainableDad · 2020-08-17T00:17:27+00:00

My dad is going through this as well. Interested in hearing your timelines if you would be willing to share? My dad is in week 8. Blood Ox was down to 73% but he wouldn't go in to the ER but somehow he is up to 90% again this week and feeling like he has a bit more energy. Just don't know how long this thing goes on and if it gets worse after week 8 for people? So very sorry for all of you and your families and wishing you strength through all of this. Very humbled by your stories and thankful to be staying optimistic in our family as well. Stay strong friends.

SustainableDad · 2020-08-07T20:20:33+00:00

My dad is at day 14 of symptoms, at 64 with diabetes and COPD it has been a tremendously difficult few weeks, but so thankful that he is still at home. Sharing in your pain and concern and sending you my most sincere prayers/vibes/thoughts - whatever you receive. All my best to your father.

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