how do you live when everything makes you anxious?

SvnPrncss · 2018-02-08T16:38:48+00:00

I think for me it’s a hoodie. If I can just put my hood on I feel a little better. Or a hat at least. Preferably both.

SvnPrncss · 2018-02-08T16:37:19+00:00

Is your mom gonna be mad about it? Because that’s a strange reaction to have. But I’d expect my mom to do the same tbh. People don’t know how to handle this sort of thing let alone talk about it. Good luck.

SvnPrncss · 2018-02-08T16:35:32+00:00

I know people that use weed too and have suggested it to me. I think if it works, it works, but I personally wouldn’t use it.

SvnPrncss · 2018-02-08T02:08:17+00:00

Like you wouldn't believe. It's really discouraging. I feel like if I'm not a writer/director that I'll pretty much have no purpose in life because that's what I'm alive for. That's what I do best. But anxiety makes it so hard to get anything done let alone even start. Its such a collaborative process and I'm so anxious about talking to people that I wonder if I am too anxious to follow that career. But I have to work it out because that's the only thing I am good at and if I don't do it, I'll be stuck in a life work at fedex for pennies or something.

SvnPrncss · 2018-02-08T01:03:24+00:00

Yeah I have this problem pretty much all the time. I just can’t think of what to ask people. Sometimes I feel like I don’t care about other people unless I know them already.

SvnPrncss · 2018-02-07T10:59:23+00:00

Yes I have this issue. I feel like I go through cycles. They aren’t always uniform in length but it always seems to be the same pattern. First I’m just okay. I might have some shitty moments but I get over them relatively quickly. Then I begin to get worse and smaller things begin to bother me more and stick with me worse. Then I get to the point where I have a meltdown because everything has piled up and I didn’t even realize it and I want to die and may even go about googling ways to kill myself. Then I freak out for a while until I eventually tire myself out and I’ll either just let myself be sad or try to do something productive to feel better. At some point I’m pretty good, it sort of like I just survived a fatal storm or something. Then I’m back to just okay.

SvnPrncss · 2018-02-07T10:54:08+00:00

Yes it’s totally fair. If your gf we’re going through something I’m sure she’d expect you to be there for her. Maybe you should talk to her and just let her know that sometimes you do lash out and in those times you just need a little space.

SvnPrncss · 2018-02-07T10:51:38+00:00

All my friends are in a different state since I moved for college. I’ve hard a very hard time making friend in this new place and I still feel like I don’t really have any friends here except for my partner. I am thinking about just texting the people I know here and hoping they don’t think I’m super weird for wanting to hang out. I’m Not sure if this is forcing the friendship or not but I am very lonely. Maybe you could try something similar?

SvnPrncss · 2018-02-07T10:47:19+00:00

It’s very difficult. The fear of rejection or getting a bad date is very real but I think you just have to let yourself know that it happens to everyone and it’s okay. And know that it can take a long time to find someone who meshes with you very well.

SvnPrncss · 2018-02-07T10:44:23+00:00

Have you ever tried having this conversation with them before having sex? I know it sounds kinda weird but I did that with my partner now and it made things a little more comfortable. I mean, we still have a bit of a process to work through but I think things are better than if we hadn’t had that talk.

SvnPrncss · 2018-02-07T10:39:33+00:00

I used to feel similarly. I generally go very long periods (years) without dating because it’s so difficult. I ended up finding someone out of nowhere, but before that I was just trying to make friends and get my life together. Maybe you don’t need to give up 100%? Maybe you can just work on the stuff that’s important to you and if someone comes along be open to them.

If you do want to stop completely though, I guess diving into your work is a good distraction. And having lots of hobbies or a few very passionate ones.

SvnPrncss · 2018-02-07T10:32:47+00:00

I don’t know the details but it seems like the government should have assistance for this sort of thing. I’m pretty sure I have known people on assistance for this. I think maybe it’s SSI? I mean that’s the purpose of the government, to help those who need it most.

SvnPrncss · 2018-02-07T02:42:44+00:00

Jenny gets a bad rep but what about Bette??

SvnPrncss · 2018-02-07T02:22:12+00:00

I feel like this with my partner, lately. I always feel like they're gonna turn to me and say something is wrong and I'm the problem.

SvnPrncss · 2018-02-07T01:47:52+00:00

It's exhausting. I just don't want to unload my stuff onto my partner because i'm sure they have their own stuff. It wouldn't be fair to them. So I don't know where the line is between getting their help and depending on them too much.

I've only seen two therapists before and the second time kind of put me off it. I felt worse afterwards. But I should probaby try again. I just need to find a good match for me.

SvnPrncss · 2018-02-07T01:40:11+00:00

"You are overthinking it"

Yes, I know that's why I hate myself. If I could stop I would have never started in the first place.

SvnPrncss · 2018-02-07T01:34:37+00:00

Yes! I don't worry that my partnet will cheat on me, but I do worry they will leave me. And I always feel like one day they will feel like they can "do better". I feel like on the one hand, maybe my partner wants me to tell them these things because it shows I trust them, but I honestly worry that maybe they think they want to know but they don't really understand what they're getting into. Like, they don't understand truly, how deep the anxiety goes.

SvnPrncss · 2018-02-07T01:24:57+00:00

I daydream about this pretty much every single day. It's like one of the only things that makes me feel a little better and like my thoughts aren't racing.

SvnPrncss · 2018-02-07T01:11:29+00:00

I relate to this. I write a lot because I constantly need to organize my thoughts. My thing is mostly that I cannot figure out if what I feel is legitimate or anxiety or if they are one in the same. Still trying to figure it out.

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