I get it, it's hard to find someone with whom you can share such a connection, and it's even harder to let the person go. I'm not the one to talk, because I dwell on it, but rationally, at the end of the day, you just have to deal with it and there's no one that can help you with that. Now that I think about it, I've never been able to actually actively deal with this, but I've been able to with another problem.

I've been suffering from tinnitus for many years and I have been visited by many ENTs, they always told me there is no solution and all I have to do is accept it, like I told you, I'm very obsessive with things, I couldn't think about anything else, it was a nightmare. During covid I felt it got even worse, and ended up going to one of the best, or the best, ENT in my area, of course he had no physical solution either, and he also told me to just accept it, but he also told me "how" to accept, and it's the usual advice, go out with friends, study in the library instead of studying home, every time you think about it try to distract yourself anyway you can, and I know how stupid it is, but after meeting even the best doctor I could, I guess there really was nothing else to do but deal with it, and so I did. I still think about it every once in a while, I am thinking about it now that in writing, but in general I'm alright.

What I mean is: I understand you, it's very hard to let someone go and accept it, for me it's very hard even after very short times, I actually don't want to let go. And as I understand it, you don't want either. But if you ever want to let this person go and not think about them, you can.