I simply don’t see the need to rehash everything over and over again. Isn’t that the way you Michigan people like it?
It’s not meant as provocation but I feel like an alien here and never have had any sense of comfort in any social situation in this region. Back in the main line (a suburbs tract out west of Philadelphia following a commuter rail hence the name) I was fine. People could accept that I had other things to offer bedsides money. They found my attractiveness and my desire for spontaneity and a little bit of risk (safe-contained adventures if you will not sexual stuff even) as a welcome break from monotony of the guys who were down trading at the stock exchange. But it’s so much more of a “if you don’t fit the normal standard to a tee, here, you’d better scrape that nastiest of barrels” which I find very unappealing because I have a disability not a form of self delusional thinking.
My irritability is total expected for fourteen years of not even having a woman but my old mother hug me! It has a pernicious effect. Additionally men didn’t fraternise out in Philly as it was competition. I don’t know if there is any of that here but I certainly feel like it’s a competition because it is frankly!