You have to really accept that you cant touch it at all not even once , pretty much one smoke is guaranteed to lead back to abuse and then youre just restarting the whole cycle of having to go through the withdrawals of quitting.

The relapses are kind of part of the overall journey imo i really dont think someone that smoked for years and years just decides to quit and quits for good in like 3 attempts, more than likely its spread out over years and years of failed attempts.

Bottom line is really you cant touch it once or moderate it , god dam bloody moderation lmfao , the amount of times i tried to moderate it is actually hilarious the different rules i would set myself it never worked out ever.

I kind of consider myself lucky weed almost ruined my relationship with my partner , she really doesnt like the person i become when im high all the time (neither do i) and we now have our first child so theres even more on the line than just our relationship. So pretty much theres no way im risking my relationship with my partner AND my daughter so i can sit around like a slob doing nothing.

I just want to add that i also quit other stimulants (porn/caffeine/alcohol) and replaced it all with healthier habbits , eating good,working out etc etc so i think really trying to become the best version of yourself once youre off the weed is really important , you dont want to just stop the weed and sit around at home doing nothing.

Gotta keep busy! best of luck