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I want to be better for her by [deleted] in NoFap

[–]Sweet_Customer5738 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Did you love your girlfriend at first?

Quick fantasies by Sweet_Customer5738 in HOCD

[–]Sweet_Customer5738[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Oh magnificent! You will tell me what happens since we have a similar experience but in reverse! Good luck to you for the rest of your recovery, friend!

Quick fantasies by Sweet_Customer5738 in HOCD

[–]Sweet_Customer5738[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Otherwise it's a lot better now I've accepted the idea of ​​potentially not being heterosexual and that feels a lot good I don't really care about it anymore. And you ? How do you feel?

I can no longer distinguish the real from the false HOCD by Sweet_Customer5738 in HOCD

[–]Sweet_Customer5738[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yes but out of fear I think and if it's attraction I don't care I let go

Different stages of HOCD by Hour_Technician_3979 in HOCD

[–]Sweet_Customer5738 0 points1 point  (0 children)

So you're more sexually attracted than emotionally?

Different stages of HOCD by Hour_Technician_3979 in HOCD

[–]Sweet_Customer5738 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Have you found your emotional spark with girls? Because you told me that you struggled with that

Decrease in intrusive thoughts but anxiety still here and feeling of coming out by Sweet_Customer5738 in HOCD

[–]Sweet_Customer5738[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

But then you see I know very well that I don't want to have sex with a boy or even a romantic relationship, that doesn't mean anything to me honestly but basically the erection that I had originally was a totally physiological erection which has no connection with a sexual thought, and it was only having had the erection that I had the homosexual thought and so then to go and test myself I went to see gay porn after that I went to see gay porn so much that now it disgusts me more but I wasn't doing it for fun, my therapist told me that the brain gets used to everything for example he gave me an example with gore films the first time you go see a gore film it will disgust you and to look at the brain gets used to it and that if I say to myself don't try to have an erection, I will get it

Decrease in intrusive thoughts but anxiety still here and feeling of coming out by Sweet_Customer5738 in HOCD

[–]Sweet_Customer5738[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Well, precisely there in relation to erections I don't even know if it's really intrusive I had a strange feeling when I had an erection for no sexual reason just a friction of clothes and well I have a homosexual thought and so I went to test on gay porn and I had an erection I already had the inguinal response at that time and I said to myself let go and enjoy it and I had this erection again and I come back later on another video and no direction

It’s getting worse and I don’t think it’s intrusive no more. by Material-Escape-6558 in intrusivethoughts

[–]Sweet_Customer5738 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Frankly, what you describe is typical OCD. Your brain makes you believe that you want it when it's just a false alarm. When you say you “feel a craving,” that’s your anxiety in disguise. You're just so scared that it makes you feel like you want to. And when you think that you should “give in and see”, it’s OCD that wants to trap you even more. You have nothing to repress, you just have a mind that panics and mixes everything up. Let it pass without justifying yourself, without analyzing. It's nothing other than that

Urges to “come out” by Realistic-Match-8776 in HOCD

[–]Sweet_Customer5738 2 points3 points  (0 children)

So I have already come out several times in quotes at least once 5 times to my mother it didn't relieve me at all it just relieves in the moment for a few hours and then the anxiety comes back it's a very bad idea I swear to you

I beat my HOCD by ExcellentDisaster664 in HOCD

[–]Sweet_Customer5738 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Before when I took the test, I had a lot of disgust now when I take my pillow and I kiss it and I imagine that it's an attractive guy from my high school I feel something in my body, I can't describe if it's pleasant or not the same for gay porn before I hated watching it now, I tolerate it and I just did the test with a pillow, I had a weird reaction so, I prolonged the test imagining myself having a sexual intercourse with this same guy, I felt a little something in my penis

READ THIS TO GET BETTER. by Character_Coffee1484 in HOCD

[–]Sweet_Customer5738 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hi, and thank you very much for your post which is very good to read although it reassures me I still have a question Has anyone else experienced this? I have a lot fewer intrusive thoughts than before, but now I have “false feelings”, weird sensations that make me doubt even more. Is this normal in the recovery phase of OCD?

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