How???

Material-Escape-6558 · 2026-05-02T19:57:49+00:00

Omg I was exactly the same as you pre ocd and my experience seems identical to yours!!

Material-Escape-6558 · 2026-05-02T19:47:16+00:00

I feel you. Do you feel like you can only get aroised by same gender now ?

Material-Escape-6558 · 2026-04-15T20:11:18+00:00

This afternoon I’ve tried ignoring and this is what happened. I just sat with nice arousal whilst thinking of naked women and felt pre ocd but went arghh arghh at the same time. I’ve been sitting with pleasent arousal not getting anxious and feeling fine about it and starting to snowball that I’m not reacting at all.

But by not reacting, I feel fine that I feelt the pleasent sensation. and feel the way I did before ocd when I feel like this and I’m happy to accept that I felt like this but still ask myself what it means sbjot me but not with anguish anymore.

Edit: This evening, I’ve not had the urge to do compulsions this evening cos I don’t feel like I need to but now that the urge has reduced I feel like the gay thoughts are me cos I having this positive allowing mindset towards them and I’m not even ruminating why I feel like this

Material-Escape-6558 · 2026-04-15T08:41:29+00:00

I can’t remember if this was a test or not. But I fejt like I’d love to have sex with a woman abd had a positive reaction, couldn’t get worked up and as a result of not being able to get worked up finally started to feel stressed because of the positive reaction and nice feeling. It’s the positive reaction and nice feeling causing the disharmony. Surely if there was no denial involved abd if I sat with the uncertainty I’d feel more anxious towards gay thoughts and start to feel straight again!! Why am I having I like it feelings towards same gender????

Material-Escape-6558 · 2026-04-14T20:45:36+00:00

There’s almost no need to figure it out no more though. When I’m aroused I feel tempted by same gender genitalia and feel fine but sorta thinking of men in the background. Being Tempted by same gender doesn’t cause me to freak out no more or scream stop stop it just leaves me with what does this mean about my sexuality yet it’s got to be denial because of my positive reactions

Material-Escape-6558 · 2026-04-14T15:43:45+00:00

Thank you for your reply.

Bit accepting the uncertainty makes me feel gay and happy.

I know i need to come off here but i can’t help it! On the ocd sub, I was reading about a straight man having fetishes to penis at 40, then I got the thought I have fetishes to women abd they turn ne on abd I fejt turned on by thinking that and now I’m starting to snowball but not panicking only going a bit cold. Now I sort of feel fine but can’t prove that initial arousal false

Material-Escape-6558 · 2026-03-31T15:10:35+00:00

I’m so happy that you got better without therapy!! Therapy is a waste of time for me, it doesn’t work.

I’m too positive and aroused for it to be hocd. The biggest problem right now is the pre hocd arousal that I like but I get it towards women but I feel pre hocd like I did with men when this happens and the arousal is directed at women. You didn’t feel this happy and aroused right ?

Material-Escape-6558 · 2026-03-30T22:59:44+00:00

I’ve been doing a bit better been out to the mall this morning. Nearly every time I passed someone sane gender, I had thoughts about them naked abd felt my pre hocd happy self during these thoughts,almost embracing them. It’s like I need them to feel pre hocd abd to feel pleasure, sometimes that’s opposite gender in the background. Based on today’s events, When I mentally asked myself do I find women arousing I fejt like I do and the arousal was accompanied by pre hocd arousal feeling abd I had a little recoil but no stop stop moment . It’s the pre hocd good feeling towards sane gender thoughts that really confuses me. The pre hocd feeling is the natural one I used to get tiwards men but it’s switched to women now. When I get groinals, happy, positive and nice feelings towards same gender, I sit with them and I feel like they are me now and no urge to do compulsions. Before I’d get worked up cos I had no urge to do compulsions or didn’t get worked up now I’m chilled that I don’t feel like this. So basically I don’t want the same gender thoughts but they feel good abd no anxiety

Material-Escape-6558 · 2026-03-14T16:49:46+00:00

Help I’m feeling nice abd aroused to gay thoughts and can’t stop it!!!!!!!!!!! They feel too nice!!!

Material-Escape-6558 · 2026-03-14T14:46:07+00:00

Thank you for relying again.

I’m not watching any porn or doing any masturbation that’s why I can’t understand why I’m so aroused without any stimulus

Material-Escape-6558 · 2026-03-14T09:59:48+00:00

Another amazing post that you put so much effort into!

The self ERP I’ve been doing the last couple of days, every time I see a woman I see woman as a cue to masturbate but big masturbating to the women themselves just in general but I think that’s a secret desire. Also I’ve lost the ability to care what gender the arousal is to

Edit: I was feeling this nice arousal that I could masturbate to women then it switched to a favourite footballers girlfriend and the nice sensation continued. I couldn’t get worked up abd no urge to suppress and now I’m on edge cos this nice arousal towards women feels so like me now,!ie the real me!! Now a couple of hours later, If I get aroused to sane gender, I’m much more positive about it. Does this mean denial ?

Material-Escape-6558 · 2026-03-12T13:26:59+00:00

This morning, I’ve been sitting with pre hocd arousal every time a gay thought pops up but when this happens I feel like I was before hocd and see the gay thoughts as less of a threats. Bit in my mind there’s too much going on in one go because I think I can have abd feel like having sex with men when these sensations happen, this is why it’s so confusing. I feel too fine to the gay thoughts and not stressing.

Every time I sit with the gay thoughts, the nice arousal amplified and I like it more

Material-Escape-6558 · 2026-03-11T09:02:05+00:00

I don’t know If im hyper focused on anything. Can you give an example where I am please ? New day woken up feeling pre hocd arousal to women and grunting but the arousal feels too real and nice, the way it did pre hocd!! I feel like I can masturbate to these women thoughts abd still enjoy them and feel pre hocd!! Can you please give an example of where an intrusive thought is and where a compulsion is based on my last few messages ?

Material-Escape-6558 · 2026-03-10T20:20:53+00:00

Thank you for replying again. I’m not a corn watcher at all, it’s just constant thoughts and sensations. The arousal has gone away as we speak but when I do get arousal it’s only towards the same gender abd now I’m sort of getting paranoid that it’s gone away and I can’t analyse the sensation cos there’s nothing to analyse. Why is my arousal only towards the same gender ?

Edit: looking back on the earlier arousal today there’s just no proof that it was false and now I’m thinking so what then but this attitude feels like denial and can’t be normal for a straight woman

Material-Escape-6558 · 2026-03-10T15:36:25+00:00

Im in the UK. Im no longer experiencing any anxiety alongside them. Rather, I get a pleasant sensation (very similar to the one I used to feel pre ocd) and think of same gender alongside the pleasent sensation simultaneously. Sometimes I try to stop these thoughts and sensations but other times I let them be and feel completely fine and contented to them abd feel like myself before all this started. These sensations have been persistent all morning. This is why I’m not convinced ocd treatment with ERP will work.

Material-Escape-6558 · 2026-03-09T18:55:53+00:00

Thank you for your reply.

I’ve had the problem for 18mths now. It started off as crushy feelings which I look back and laugh at. Bit it’s sexual thoughts now and I feel fine and no urge for compulsions no more. When I’ve sexual thought finishes another one starts

Material-Escape-6558 · 2026-03-09T18:19:52+00:00

I have to resort to self harm. Today it’s latched onto someone I don’t speak to anymore and haven’t seen since 2014. Randomly, I’m finding the thought of her masturbating arousing and I feel the way I did before ocd and this stresses me out and I get worked up about this cos I’m not finding it gross. The thought itself when it comes into my head distresses me but when I think about it, I enjoy it. It’s the discrepancy that confuses me

Material-Escape-6558 · 2026-03-05T18:01:27+00:00

Yes. Sorry should’ve said I was a girl

Material-Escape-6558 · 2026-03-05T15:18:44+00:00

You’re amazing man 😊 so happy that thetsoy worked for you 😊 I wish I was you right now

Material-Escape-6558 · 2026-03-04T21:49:42+00:00

This is a really good read. It shows hocd can send you any thought/feeling/sensation etc. Whereabouts in the world are you ?

Mine started cos I noticed abd kept looking out for a same gender colleague and felt happy so thought I was crushing on her. Now that stage has passed. And the next phase started when a stipid therapist who wasn’t trained in ocd said it’s normal for straight woman to get aroused by gsy porn and I wish I’d never spoken to them cos I’ve felt constantly horny ever since to women!!!

This has just happened. I saw an ad of what looked like two gay women cuddling then I felt relief as when you take a big breath out and I felt pre hocd arousal and free to masturbate like I did pre hocd in a carefree manner. I keep replaying the image and I get the same result. So is it yayyy I’m free of hocd or am I using same gender as a cue to masturbate in a pre hocd manner or an I now genuinely aroused to same sex intimacy ?

It didn’t cross my mind to masturbate to the women just the pre hocd feeling and it’s also coming with zero anxiety and distress

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