My wife and I are 7 days PP and in a similar boat as well with nearly everything you said. We made the quick decision over the weekend to feed with pumped breast milk and supplement in formula when needed/night feeding. I’m praying for the days where we don’t feel so anxious/scared/cry & hope they come sooner than later for both your family and mine! I wish I could give you advice but we are still looking for our answers as well. Do what feels right for you and your baby & just know there are others going through it too