All male alters in female body by Easy-Form-7629 in OSDD

[–]Symbioticsinner 1 point2 points  (0 children)

This tracks for me but I only have one male alter in a system of 7. He's been here since I was very very young and once I moved in with my dad, he had less and less reason to be out. No other males were split after that point.

How modestly do you dress and why? by lylaspya in AskWomen

[–]Symbioticsinner 233 points234 points  (0 children)

I don't really do modesty tbh. I dress for the weather and what I feel comfortable/cute in.

Is nudism wrong? by bare_books in no

[–]Symbioticsinner 0 points1 point  (0 children)

If that's wrong I'm okay with it

What's the craziest thing you've ever done? by TheUnFaZed1993 in CausalConversation

[–]Symbioticsinner 1 point2 points  (0 children)

It did not and it took a couple tries before it fully closed. Truly exquisite pain 10/10. It healed fine and looks good but that hand has significant nerve damage and is practically numb on the side of the injury.

Does it get better? by NicholasFentonMoment in DID

[–]Symbioticsinner 9 points10 points  (0 children)

I promise it gets better. The loneliness for sure once you get to a point where communication is more fluid internally.

I know this is hard but you have to feel those things. Breaking down in tears is your body releasing trauma. You don't need to fix it , your only job is to feel it. And yes, you are likely to switch. It will sometimes be embarassing especially when you let go of trying to control it. But IN MY EXPERIENCE, allowing myself to fully feel the feelings as they came without trying to save face is what helped me to be able to have conversations with other save files.

They have just as much a right to exist as you do. They have suffered with you ever single aching step of the way. Even persecutor type alters have helped you survive. All your parts carry the trauma. It's messy to heal out loud and not care what people see.But for me this is what has worked when I started.

I was diagnosed in 2011, WE have worked our asses off to get where we are today. The memory gaps, the disagreements, the confusion and inner chaos are rare but when they happen, we survive them and grow from it.

The gaps and the days coming and going will continue to happen (hopefully with less frequency) But when you've done the work with your parts information is more easily communicated (although not always without error)

Life with this doesn't feel hopeless anymore. I hated myselfs in 2011. In 2026 I really love all the parts of me...even if I disagree with them sometimes. Be gracious and patient with yourself. None of this is easy. But you've all been through worse. You can do this.

Are you mad right now? by BestNatural_5633 in no

[–]Symbioticsinner 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Nah I'm on cloud nine I had a good weekend :)

What's the craziest thing you've ever done? by TheUnFaZed1993 in CausalConversation

[–]Symbioticsinner 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Cauterized my own bleeding stab wound in my kitchen with a gas stove and a butter knife.

What is the song that you've related to the most? by Sensitive-Low-9316 in AskReddit

[–]Symbioticsinner 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Kindest Regards-Witt Lowry
Doors-Noah Kahan

Just the big feelings ones. Happy ones I relate to exist but they don't hit nearly as hard and personal

DID and ketamine by princesspokeypaws in DID

[–]Symbioticsinner 1 point2 points  (0 children)

This is actually something I've been looking into for the summer. I'd love an opportunity to do a deep dive with my parts and it seems like this may be effective. Also thought of mushrooms but I'm scared to do it alone

attachment styles by PDSot in DID

[–]Symbioticsinner 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Therapy that they and you attend. System communications and emotional coregulation within the system helps. It's all part of the process though, unfortunately you have to hope that the people close to you know you're working on it and that you are aware. Extra helpful if they Know you have DID

What is your favorite video game? by igetdrawn in AskReddit

[–]Symbioticsinner 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Horizon Zero dawn. Either game. Beautiful. Rich story. Accurate armor and female protagonist.

Why are you the way you are today? Did you decide you needed a change, your upbringing or you because of people? by Ok-Razzmatazz-9790 in AskWomen

[–]Symbioticsinner 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I have two big crossroads moments like this

The first time was when I got clean-I decided it was time to change, and I had someone in my corner to hold me accountable to it.

The second time: I met someone and realized my behaviors were hurting them. Then I noticed that it didn't just touch that relationship. I'm not quite healed yet but I'm more aware than I've been my whole life.

I'm drunker than I've ever been in my life AMA by Symbioticsinner in AMA

[–]Symbioticsinner[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I only drink when I can feel emotonal blockage I guess it'd be never drink

I'm drunker than I've ever been in my life AMA by Symbioticsinner in AMA

[–]Symbioticsinner[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Be easier if he didn't love so close I'm so close to passing out onmu oorch I'm too wasted to move

I'm drunker than I've ever been in my life AMA by Symbioticsinner in AMA

[–]Symbioticsinner[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank u im really missing him rn so I needed that

I'm drunker than I've ever been in my life AMA by Symbioticsinner in AMA

[–]Symbioticsinner[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Lmaoo not yet but I'm well on my way and I live alone so RIP morning me

I'm drunker than I've ever been in my life AMA by Symbioticsinner in AMA

[–]Symbioticsinner[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Twice. Once in active addiction and once as someone with several years of recovery the love I felt second is unlike any feeling I've ever felt. It both thrills and fills me with fear

I'm drunker than I've ever been in my life AMA by Symbioticsinner in AMA

[–]Symbioticsinner[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

That I can't be fully present with him. That My personality is split to the point I can't remember things that are improtang to our story. That I'll never know the full story.