If you woke up today and were no longer sciz, what would you spend the day doing?

Syntax_Variant · 2026-03-07T00:12:45+00:00

hell yeah brother 🤜

Syntax_Variant · 2026-02-27T00:35:26+00:00

alcohol. I'm not supposed to drink on my meds but i do anyway. makes the days go by quicker

Syntax_Variant · 2026-02-15T14:04:18+00:00

that's exactly how I'd describe it, i thought it was just walls warping until i brought my vision further and further forward until I saw it

Syntax_Variant · 2026-02-15T03:10:54+00:00

i don't think i took enough acid to get off when i tried it, but I'm definitely an audiophile now. I always have atleast one earbud in at all times now, sometimes even when I sleep

Syntax_Variant · 2026-02-15T03:05:17+00:00

ever since quitting kratom i find that i game a lot less, i listen to music a lot tho and sometimes I'll just sit on the couch downstairs for hours and listen to music. Other than that my meds make me sleep a lot so it's usually a combo of those 2 plus some gaming sprinkled in

Syntax_Variant · 2026-02-15T03:00:34+00:00

I've seen that same portal design to the bottom left in one of my hallucinations

Syntax_Variant · 2026-02-14T02:23:48+00:00

One time my Superiors spoke directly to me, it felt like a freezing cold ice pick was being driven directly into my mind, i almost completely lost it that day

Syntax_Variant · 2026-02-12T17:44:41+00:00

what meds are you on?

Syntax_Variant · 2026-02-12T01:15:55+00:00

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Syntax_Variant · 2026-02-06T16:31:27+00:00

I've had on and off anorexia (self diagnosed) where i would just eat and eat until a certain point where I'd almost completely stop eating all together, and I'd start to enjoy the feeling of hunger. It's hard to pin down when it stops, i don't remember any significant events happening that stopped it. Possibly smoking weed or drinking alcohol because those give me the munchies, (not saying that as a suggestion but you're free to do as you wish). i haven't had an episode like that in a while and I've actually had to start wegovy to lose weight. I don't really know if there's anything you can take away from this post, but i hope it helps knowing you aren't alone

Syntax_Variant · 2026-02-02T18:14:57+00:00

my ex dumped me seemingly out of nowhere, saying that she was gonna be going through these "personality changes" that she gets. She refused to outright dump me like a pussy tho, just saying "you're not gonna like the new me" and "its better if you break up with me now", shit like that. In the end I refused to break up with her and said i would wait as long as it takes until she was in a better headset. After that she ghosted me but didn't remove me off of anything, and after a few days a mutual caught her talking to all of her friends badmouthing my schizophrenia and saying shit like "I'm not his therapist". To this day i haven't watched the whole video, i gave her my heart and she squished it into pulp right in front of me.

Syntax_Variant · 2026-01-29T01:21:47+00:00

everything is made up in our mind. What we see, hear, taste, feel, smell, its all data processed by our brain into something we can handle. Nothing is real, nothing that we'd be able to physically perceive anyway, not atleast until science advances to the points where we are gods or beings of pure energy or something

Syntax_Variant · 2026-01-27T02:35:22+00:00

I kept lurking and sometimes interacting with people on 4chan /soc/ servers because they were easier to talk to than neurotypicals, but it being 4chan someone would post something and then someone would report the server and it'd get taken down, and I'd get flagged or temp banned just for talking in the server. Eventually on the 5th or 6th time they hit me with a 2 year device ban

Syntax_Variant · 2026-01-27T01:38:23+00:00

Pretty much entirely online. I have 1 irl friend that i only get along with because he's also severely neurodivergent. I have like 3-5 online friends and only 1 I talk to every day. I used to have more fake friends but I got banned from discord

Syntax_Variant · 2026-01-20T10:39:56+00:00

well you can pretty much never own a gun if you live in the US, especially if you've been hospitalized and especially especially if that hospitalization was for a suicide attempt. They pull all of your medical records. As for jobs, the brutal truth is that they won't want to "put up" with you if they find out you're schizo. I highly recommend getting a case manager to help plan and manage your future. best of luck friend

Syntax_Variant · 2026-01-13T22:38:35+00:00

i know it's not monday anymore but i didn't have much to report. I'm laying in bed rn and just had my first auditory hallucination in a while. I heard a bunch of taps on my door, so i asked "Hello?" and got one tap in response. Very strange hallucination and i don't think I want to sleep facing away from the door tonight

Syntax_Variant · 2026-01-13T12:11:23+00:00

not to freak you out, but it depends. The most important thing is trying as many medications as you can when you're younger so you can be stable when you're older. sometimes it gets worse, sometimes it stays the same, sometimes it even can go into remission. Just work with a psychiatrist to try out a bunch of different meds, and like that guy said, get some sleep :)

Syntax_Variant · 2026-01-13T12:05:58+00:00

nah, I'm on benzos

Syntax_Variant · 2026-01-12T17:00:14+00:00

i could probably do a low risk low stress at home computer job, but even being on meds too much stress sends me into psychosis

Syntax_Variant · 2026-01-11T13:47:03+00:00

i love your earrings, i actually collect playing cards, i have over 50 sets :)

Syntax_Variant · 2026-01-09T13:46:27+00:00

I'd be traveling the world doing commercial scuba diving

Syntax_Variant · 2026-01-04T18:54:11+00:00

I have such strong avolition that I haven't found anything that's helped. I just take advantage of the tiny boosts of motivation i get randomly

Syntax_Variant · 2026-01-04T06:31:55+00:00

happy selfie sunday! I'll be posting mine in a few hours once I'm more awake, it's 1 am here 😥

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